with hatred and anger, scorned to touch any part of what was mine, and cried out at me that I might go, for she had a lover worth the loving, and every tenderness ever she had had for me was turned to gall.â
âShe told you that?â said Hugh sharply. âThat she had another lover? I know that was the gossip, when she left the cottage and went away secretly. But you had it from her own lips?â
âYes, she said so. She was bitter that after she had failed to keep me at her side, neither could she now be rid of me and free in the worldâs eyes, for still I was her husband, a millstone about her neck, and she could not slough me off. But that should not prevent, she said, but she would take her freedom by force, for she had a lover, a hundred times my worth, and she would go with him, if he beckoned, to the ends of the earth. Brother Paul was witness to all,â said Ruald simply. âHe will tell you.â
âAnd that was the last time you saw her?â
âThat was the last time. By the end of that month of June she was gone.â
âAnd since that time, have you ever been back to that field?â
âNo. I have worked on abbey land, in the Gaye for the most part, but that field has only now become abbey land. Early in October, a year ago now, it was given to Haughmond. Eudo Blount of Longner, who was my overlord, made the gift to them. I never thought to see or hear of the place again.â
âOr of Generys?â Cadfael interjected mildly, and watched the lines of Rualdâs thin face tighten in a brief spasm of pain and shame. And even these he would endure faithfully, mitigated and rendered bearable by the assurance of joy that now never deserted him. âI have a question to ask,â said Cadfael, âif Father Abbot permits. In all the years you spent with her, had you ever cause to complain of your wifeâs loyalty and fidelity, or the love she bore to you?â
Without hesitation Ruald said: âNo! She was always true and fond. Almost too fond! I doubt I ever could match her devotion. I brought her out of her own land,â said Ruald, setting truth before his own eyes and scarcely regarding those who overheard, âinto a country strange to her, where her tongue was alien and her ways little understood. Only now do I see how much more she gave me than I ever had it in me to repay.â
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It was early evening, almost time for Vespers, when Hugh reclaimed the horse Brother Richard had considerately stabled, and rode out from the gatehouse into the Foregate, and for a moment hesitated whether to turn left, and make for his own house in the town, or right, and continue the pursuit of truth well into the dusk. A faint blue vapour was already rising over the river, and the sky was heavily veiled, but there was an hour or more of light left, time enough to ride to Longner and back and have a word with young Eudo Blount. Doubtful if he had paid any attention to the Potterâs Field since it was deeded away to Haughmond, but at least his manor lay close to it, over the crest and in among the woodlands of his demesne, and someone among his people might almost daily have to pass that way. It was worth an enquiry.
He made for the ford, leaving the highway by the hospital of Saint Giles, and took the field path along the waterside, leaving the partially ploughed slope high on his left-hand side. Beyond the headland that bordered the new ploughland a gentle slope of woodland began above the water meadows, and in a cleared space within this belt of trees the manor of Longner stood, well clear of any flooding. The low undercroft was cut back into the slope, and stone steps led steeply up to the hall door of the living floor above. A groom was crossing the yard from the stable as Hugh rode in at the open gateway, and came blithely to take his bridle and ask his business with the master.
Eudo Blount had heard the voices below, and came out to his hall door
Letting Go 2: Stepping Stones