clasp, and she jumped up.
"Okay -- you think I'm afraid to go in?" Quickly she stripped off her
brassiere and panties, and ran into the water. "Oh! Oh!" she shouted
gaily. "It's freezing. Come on in, you coward!"
Wallowing in the water beside her, Yale knew he was blushing. He watched
her with a feeling of warm delight. Her hair was soaking wet, and dripped
over her shoulders. Her breasts were thrust high, her nipples firm and
pointed from the cold water.
"Gosh, I feel better," she said, smiling at him, Unconcerned about her
lack of clothes. "You know," she confided, "I never had but one drink
before in my life."
They walked back on the tiny beach. "Why did you drink that stuff, then?"
Yale asked.
"I don't know. I won't again, I can tell you."
They sat together on the sand. Yale sprawled on his stomach and watched
her hugging her knees. She seemed like some lovely creature out of a
fairy tale he had read years ago. Yet he was bothered. She was so wild
and unexpected. Did she go swimming naked with just anyone? The thought
made Yale jealous.
"I suppose, now, you'll tell all your friends that we went swimming
together naked," she said, looking at him speculatively.
Yale shook his head. How could he tell her that this moment was
indescribably precious to him? That this was the first time he had ever
seen a woman naked except maybe his sister and that had been years ago
when Barbara was thirteen. How could he tell Cynthia that her beauty,
the curve of her shoulders, the softness of her breasts, the arch of her
stomach and the triangle of her hair leading into her slender thighs,
was for him an emotion ineffable. An emotion that brought tears to his
eyes and joy to his very being. He wanted to somehow shout, "Look at the
wonder of the existence of us. We are alive . . . and it is good!"
A woman's body, he thought, could give the beholder the concept of God
-- a tangible evidence of mysteries beyond comprehension.
"Look at you!" she giggled. "You're a man, too!" She stared at him
thoughtfully. "You look different from my father and brother though." She
suddenly realized that it was because Yale was not circumcised. Cynthia
blushed. She wondered what he was thinking. She wanted to tell him
that other than her own brothers, he was the only boy she had ever seen
naked. Awkwardly, Yale tried to put his arm around her.
"Don't get any ideas," she said. She slapped him playfully on the stomach.
"I'm a virgin. I intend to stay that way for a while." Yale admitted
that he was a virgin, too. He told her that it was all right with him.
He didn't tell her that just being with her, sharing the warm September
sun, the quiet whisper of the trees and the murmur of the river as it
rushed by toward the ocean, was a kind of completeness in itself. Holding
her hand as he lay beside her, he realized that for the first time in his
life he was not alone; that he had a potential friend. Someone who might
come with him in a wondrous search for all the mystery and beauty that
he knew was in life. Was Cynthia that kind of person? Or was she just
another one of the crazy girls that he had known whose only interest
seemed to be what clothes they wore, what dances they were going to,
what song was on top of the Hit Parade, what dates were the smoothest,
or which boy could dance the best.
He looked at Cynthia and found her watching him. "You seem so far away,"
she said. "Come back and tell me what you were thinking."
"Why did you drink with Larry McQuail? Why did you sing that song?"
Yale demanded bluntly. "I'm not a prude, but you are too nice to get
mixed up with him."
"And why am I lying here naked with you?" she asked angrily.
"I know what you think -- that I'm a tramp."
Yale denied it. "I think you are beautiful. I don't know. I'm the romantic
type, I guess." He was silent trying to think what he meant. How could he
tell her that he felt protective toward her. He was embarrassed to try to
explain
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