possess all her heady scents,
My own musk is not black or cold.
My dripping heart of summer brings seeds:
Sows them even over the ruin of Decemberâs earth.
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Listen to the owl in the ruin of the keep.
He is weaving the boughs together.
My heart swells with his delight.
In his eyes, the mark of the moon.
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Arise, my songs! My ballads
Are chanting all seedlings nearâ
Tiny travelers on wind or feather,
Flee now and take root!
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From your growth I take my melody.
From you, my song swells.
From the summer of life,
The songster of beauty.
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On the bottom, Sebastian had scrawled the clue Epsilon had given him, when he came to warn him about this ballad:
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V THEN V THEN V THEN V
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I stared at the name heading the ballad: Yolandë. Aloud, I tried to say the name a few times. The dots over the e make me think itâs spoken with an emphasis on the eâso that it rhymes with panda. It looks like an archaic spelling of Yolanda to me.
Then I read the ballad over and over, trying to think what âV then V then V then Vâ might mean. But it was nouseâit was all beyond me. So finally I turned to the last paper, which Sebastian had labeled THE KEY . Here it is.
I stared at all the symbols until my eyes went fuzzy. They were the same sort of symbols as had appeared on my bedroom wallâand Iâd managed to decipher those. Surely this was the same process? I just needed to set my mind to it.
It was then that I realized just how tired I was. The heat of the room and the rich scents of the spices and the perfumed candles standing aroundânot lit, of course, but still giving off this heady scent. Iâve smelled something like it before, I thinkâMomâs endless incense sticks or the smell in a church. But this smell is richer, older; you can almost taste it in the air. And the drone of insects, and a lost bee in the window, trying to push out the pane of glass with its forehead. And above it all, the endless Rhroo-hoo! Rhroo-hoo! of the pigeon in her nest. I felt half hypnotized.
Anyway, I couldnât stop yawning. I felt dizzy, too. I remembered the doctorâs warning about the heat wave. So I returned the boxes and came down here to have a rest, to think and doze in the rocking chair.
I like this place now. It feels creepy at timesâbut it also feels like itâs mine. Like itâs for me to use. Any minute, I keep expecting to see Epsilonâthe real Epsilon, not just glimpsed shadowsâsuddenly appear in a corner. I wonder what he really looks like. I wonder if Iâd be scared. Iâve never seen a ghost (although he laughed like mad when I asked him if he was one!). I want to meet him.
I just stopped writing, looked all round the room.
âWhen can I meet you, Epsilon?â I asked the house out loud.
The pigeon stopped cooing. But then a new noise started. Outside. A sort of flapping. Like wings, but huge wingsâit canât be the pigeon, sheâs too small. Like great birds, coming nearer.
I just went out and searched the sky for birds. Nothing. Only the sun beating down on the top of my head, and the hushing of the sea in the bay below.
Itâs no goodâI have to get out of this heat. Iâm going back. Iâll take the documents with me and decipher the symbols at home. Mom will go crazy if she sees me up and aboutâIâll have to sneak in. Sheâll still be in the kitchen, I knowâsheâs promised the doctor sheâll bake for the garden party, or the Greet, as they call it here. Though how she can stand being near the stove in this weather is beyond me.
Okay. I feel sick again. Time to go back.
I am strangely reluctant to leave.
âBye, Epsilon.
Chapter Ten
THERE ARE TWO MEMBERS IN THE CHAT ROOM:
J ESS AND A VRIL
AVRIL: Youâre making all this up! You always did tell tall storiesâyou never stopped exaggerating.
JESS: Iâm not doing that