strange.â
âItâs pretty different, thatâs for sure,â Shelby says.
Sheâs waiting for me to offer more of an explanation, but I donât know what to say. My throat tightens like I might cry.
âYeah. Really different,â I choke out. âI gotta go.â
âOkay.â She sounds uneasy. âBut call me back if you want.â
I nod but canât speak, so I just hang up. I use all my strength to hold tears at bay. I thrust the book back into the cupboard, where it had waited for who knows how long to come out and confuse me and torment me. I slam the door shut.
In the morning, I stand in the middle of my room, biting the inside of my cheek and trying to decide whether or not I should take the diary to school. When the honk summons me, I tear down the stairs to the front door, but then I pivot and dash back up. Yank open the cupboard and grab the book. The cracked leather cover feels like skin. I donât want to touch it. I shove the book into my backpack.
I pull the front door closed behind me and climb into the Steinersâ back seat.
âHi, Michelle.â The name is awkward in my mouth. âI thought your mom was driving.â
âShe had to be at work early,â Adam grumbles.
âThis is great, actually.â I unzip my backpack. âI can show you what we found in the diary.â
âWhat did we find?â Adam twists to look at me over his shoulder.
My memory of the afternoon in the library has gone fuzzy around the edges. Why canât I remember what we thought was so strange? âWas it writing?â
I open the book to the notes Adam made in class.
Rosemary remembers. Rosemary is an herb . . .
And back again to my handwriting, the line from
Hamlet
perched neatly at the top of a page, a page that is otherwise blank.
I look up at Adam. His mouth is open slightly, as if heâs forgotten what he was going to say. He faces front and runs a hand through his hair.
âI canât look while Iâm driving, Rosie,â Shelby says. She steers around the curve on River Road, her eyes straight ahead, her hands perfectly positioned on the wheel.
I keep a hand on the book, waiting for a chance. Maybe at a traffic light. I look past Shelby to the island. The bare trees of winter make it look forlorn and incomplete.
Last time the three of us went there, we paddled through the leaves drifting on the water. Shelby and I worked the oars while Adam lounged in the front of the boat and sang loudly and badly in made-up Italian.
We tied up the boat and carried our picnic to the rosemary patch, which Shelby calls the Rosie patch. While we ate, we plotted a play version of some book we were reading. I donât remember what it was. We were always planning plays and casting them and collecting costumes and props and then the actual play would only take about three minutes, and the Steiners wouldnât be able to make it, and Mom would gush about how weâd done such a great job, and weâd start in on the next one.
âDo you guys have Mr. Cates today?â Shelby asks.
âYeah. Weâre meeting in the library.â
âFor biography research,â Adam adds.
Shelby sighs. âI loved that class. It was way better than ninth-grade English. Whoâre you doing for your project?â
âConstance Brooke,â I answer.
âReally?â Shelby glances at me in the rearview mirror.
âYeah, because of the diary,â I explain.
She swoops into the drive in front of the school. Adamâs already climbing out of the car.
âI really want to show youââ I start, but the person behind us honks.
âSorry.â She tucks her hair behind her ears. âLater, okay?â
We stand together and watch Shelby pull away.
Mr. Cates is waiting with Mrs. Wallace in the reference section. The rest of our class is already scattered around a handful of square tables for