prospect of its not happening upset her.
She had contemplated taking the initiative and ringing them, even getting to the point more than once of lifting the receiver, but she didnât want to appear needy. The last thing a newly married woman needed was an intrusive mother-in-law.
But the lack of information still rankled. Judeâs absence that afternoon made her feel even more unsettled, so Carole decided she had to do something. If she had inadvertently offended her son and daughter-in-law, then it was time to build bridges or mend fences or some other metaphor of that kind.
She had both Stephen and Gabyâs work numbers, but she rang the Fulham one. Better just to leave a message; then they could ring her back at their convenience. Mind you, of course, if they didnât ring her back, then sheâd feel even worse. Thatâd certainly be making a statement that they didnât want to have anything more to do with her.
But the thought came too late, the phone was already ringing, andâto her surpriseâit was answered. By Gaby.
âOh, sorry. I wasnât expecting anyone to be there.â
âCarole. Itâs good to hear you.â But Gabyâs words sounded automatic. There was no energy. The natural bubbliness of her personality seemed to have gone flat.
âI just thought it had been a while since weâ¦â
âYes.â
âSo youâre both all right, are you?â
âFine, yes. Stephenâs very busy at work.â
âSo what else is new?â
âExactly.â
âAnd you?â
âYes, fine.â
âI meant work, because surely todayâs a working dayâ¦?â
âYes, Iâm having a day off. Few things Iâve got to catch up with round the house.â
âBut youâre okay?â
âAbsolutely fine, yes.â But the listlessness with which the words were said was at odds with their meaning.
âWellâ¦I was thinking it would be nice for us to get together again soon.â
âYes, yes, it would.â But no pursuit of the idea, no suggestions, no consultation of diaries.
âFine, Gaby. Well, Iâll give you a call again whenâ¦maybe an eveningâ¦talk when Stephenâs there.â
âThat might be better. He has so many more demands on his time than I do, I donât dare make arrangements without consulting him.â As an excuse, it was perfectly acceptable, but Carole still sensed an unwillingness in Gaby to fix a meeting.
âRight. Well, Iâll call soon then. And,â she went on haltingly, âdo give Stephen my love.â Such words of effusiveness did not come naturally to her.
âYes, of course I will.â
âWell, good to talk to you, Gaby.â
âAnd you.â
âAnd look forward to meeting up soon.â
âMm.â
âGood-bye then.â
âBye.â
As she switched off the phone, Carole wished she hadnât made the call. Her paranoia had only increased. Before she had spoken to Gaby, she could still nurture the fantasy that everything was all right, but now sheâd heard the lack of enthusiasm in her daughter-in-lawâs voice, that was no longer possible.
What on earth could be wrong? Feeling lousy and taking a day off work could be a sign of early pregnancy, but if that were the case, surely Gaby would have told her. And she wouldnât have sounded so doomy. That was the really distressing thing about the callâthat the normally ebullient Gaby had sounded so down, so positively depressed.
Oh dear. Please God there wasnât something going wrong in the marriage. Guilt for the effect her own breakup with David had had on Stephen swelled within her.
She had another look at the Times crossword. The clues might as well have been written in a foreign language.
7
I T WASNâT WORKING . Jude couldnât identify what was wrong, but she knew it wasnât working.
She could feel the