year.â
âYouâre right. It is green.â
âItâs quite . . . moggy.â Iâve never heard Grandma use moggy before. Sometimes she has her own words or pronunciations for things. I know what sheâs getting at.
âYeah, fairly.â
âMore here than Ottawa.â
âYes.â
âThere are more swamps along this road than I remember.â
âI guess it is green and swampy and . . . moggy.â
âOh, yes.â Sheâs slanted in her seat, gazing out the window, her right hand up on the glass. âLovely and moggy.â
âNice to still see some of these farms, too, isnât it?â
âIt is, dear. I can remember when I first came out to Ontario, from the Prairies. I couldnât believe what they called farms out here. They were so small. You havenât seen farms until you see what they have in the Prairies.â
âIâm sure youâre right, Grandma. These are what I think of when I think of a farm.â These small stone houses and scatterings of barns and wood fences. Lots of trees around. A few cattle, maybe a field of a corn. But even these farms, especially closer to Ottawa, are disappearing. âBut the land is more valuable as real estate.â
âMakes you wonder where weâll grow our food,â she says. âThese fields are so nice.â
Our chatting has grown so continuous Iâve turned the tape down low. It was difficult for Grandma to decipher between me, the speakers, and the engine. Sheâd either ask me to repeat something or, more commonly, I could just tell by her void expression that she hadnât caught what was said. Weâve been talking mostly about the scenery around us, which has become very rocky.
âItâs funny,â sheâs saying, âwe went for a lot of drives and little trips like this, but we never once went to Kingston.â
âYou mean you and Grandpa?â
âYes, George loved going away.â
âYou guys used to take a lot of drives?â
âOh, sure, even just for the weekend. We both enjoyed a change of scene.â Sheâs tacked her focus back inside the car.
âDid you often go away?â
âWe did, yes. We were just lucky we were able to. Some of my fondest memories are the small trips we made around Ontario.â Iâm not sure if this announcement should make me feel more pressure to show Grandma a good time or just reinforce the notion that she enjoys this species of trip. âBut,â she continues, âwe never went far.â
âStill nice to get away.â
âAnd I often did the driving.â
âNeat.â Shit. I knew it. She thinks Iâm a bad driver. Maybe she wants to take over?
âYour grandpa liked to navigate and I liked doing the driving.â
âI can believe that. So do you want to drive now?â
âWhat? No, no, dear. Iâm happy to just sit here and look out there.â
She sounds genuine. I guess I should just keep driving.
âOnce, I remember it very well, George told me to pack up, that we were going somewhere as a surprise. I had no idea what to pack. We ended up driving five minutes away, to a motel in Bells Corners.â
Bells Corners is really only a short stretch of road in western Ottawa. There are a few restaurants, some shops, and (apparently) a motel or two.
âSo is that where you stayed?â
âYup, for the whole weekend. Ten minutes from home. You used to have to sign in, in an actual book in those days, when you checked in.â
âLike in Psycho .â
âAnd after we signed in, the guy gave us a room way at the back even though it wasnât busy.â Iâm not quite sure what Grandmaâs implying, and she must sense my momentary daze. âHe read the address on the sign-in sheet and knew it wasnât far.â My face is still blank, my wheels turning faster than the carâs. âHe assumed