cried all the tears she was ever going to cry over him two years ago. âWas there someone else the whole time?â she asked in a cool crisp tone. âYou can be honest with me, Luca. I am a big girl now. I can take it. I wasnât enough to satisfy you, was I? I wasnât worldly enough for your sophisticated tastes.â
He gave her a brooding frown. âIs that what you thought?â
She flattened her mouth. âItâs what I know,â she said. âI was a novelty for you at first but it must have become annoying after a while. I was good enough to have sex with but not good enough for you to take on any of your trips abroad. But no doubt you had plenty of women to step into my place.â
He continued to frown at her. âThat is not the way it was, Bronte.â He raked one of his hands through his hair, making it look as if he had just tumbled out of bed. âIâve always preferred to travel alone. Itâs less complicated.â
Bronte bit the inside of her mouth to control herspiralling emotions. Why hadnât she left five minutes ago before it had got to this? âWe went out for close to six months,â she said. âNot once did you spend a whole night with me. Not once, Luca. You never even took me for a weekend away. Not even into the country. I was your city mistress. The easy girl you could bed any time you liked. You only had to pick up the phone and I was available.â
Luca came over and captured Bronteâs flailing hands, holding them firmly in his grasp. âStop it, Bronte,â he said. âYou were no such thing. Not to me.â
She looked at him with tears shining in her eyes. âYou used me, Luca. You canât deny it. You used me and when you got tired of me you let me go.â
Luca looked down at her hands, struggling to get away from his. His hands were so olive-skinned and dark and big compared to her slim, small creamy ones. Her hands reminded him of small doves fluttering to get away. Her body was so slight. Everything about her was so dainty and elegant. Her dancerâs body, the way she carried herself, the way her eyes looked so big and dark in the perfect oval of her face.
He looked into those big dark eyes and wondered how he could repair the damage he had done. He could see the pain his rejection had caused. It glimmered there amongst the sheen of tears she was so determined not to shed in front of him.
She was so unlike any other woman he had been with in the past. He had loved the fact he was her first lover. She had seemed embarrassed about it but he had secretly delighted in it. He wondered if that was why he could not forget her. She had touched him in a way no one else had ever done. There was a place deep insideof him no one had ever been able to reach and yet he had felt as if she had come so very close. He had not wanted to fall in love with anyone, not with his health the way it had been back then. But with Bronte he had come close. Too close. That was why heâd had to back off before he was in so deep he wouldnât be able to think rationally. The more time heâd spent with her, the more heâd realised how unfair it would be on her to tie her to him when there was no guarantee he could give her anything in return.
Luca released one of her hands so he could put his other hand in the small of her back, bringing her up against him again. He loved the feel of her body flush against his. She fitted against him as if she had been made for him. He felt his body stirring and wished he could show her what he found so hard to say out loud. But it would only scare her away. It was too soon. He had to take things slowly and carefully this time. She was like a shy fawn with an innate sense of danger. She needed time and careful handling. He had the patience for the careful handling, but time was something he didnât have at his disposal. A month was all he had to get her to come back to him, to see
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