âProbably at the worst possible time.â
I wondered if they were right. It was definitely a strange, powerful feeling, knowing that I could become four very different animals. Strange and powerful and disturbing. Inside of me I had animals that ate one another. It wasnât a good image.
Suddenly I felt exhausted. âLook, guys ⦠Iâve acquired Fluffer now. But maybe we should do therest of this tomorrow night. Iâm ⦠I donât know if Iâm at my best right now.â
âAnother night,â Jake agreed. He looked relieved. I think he was worried about me. Thatâs the way Jake is.
âI guess we can let Fluffer go now,â Cassie said. She opened the carrier and the cat climbed out cautiously.
I watched him run off into the night. âProbably going off to kill your shrew,â Marco speculated.
The idea made me shudder all over again.
A
aaaaahhh! Aaaaah! Aaaaaah!â
âWake up. Rachel, wake up!â
âAaah!
Oh. Oh. Oh.â I sat up. I was gasping for air. It was dark, but I could just make out Jordanâs face. She was shaking me awake.
I felt my face. Lips. Eyes. Nose.
I patted myself down frantically. Human. I was human. No fur. No tail. Human.
The details of the dream came rushing up to my consciousness.
âOh, no,â I moaned. I threw back the covers and stumbled to my feet. I staggered toward the bathroomdoor. The bathroom connects my room and the room Jordan and Sara share. I tried to turn on the light but missed the switch. I dropped to my knees in front of the toilet and threw up.
Jordan kept saying, âAre you all right, Rachel? Are you all right? I better get Mom.â
âNo,â I said, as soon as I could talk. âNo, Iâm fine. Donât wake Mom up.â Fortunately, little Sara can sleep through anything.
I brushed my teeth and drank some water. I looked sheepishly at Jordan. She looks nothing like me. I guess I look more like my dad, and Jordan is like this smaller version of my mom: dark hair and dark eyes. She looked pretty scared.
âIâm okay,â I said again. âJust a bad dream. I guess it made me kind of sick, is all. But Iâm fine now.â
Jordan relaxed a little. âMust have been
some
dream.â
âI guess so. I canât even remember it now. You know how it is. Dreams fade away so you canât even remember them.â
âI canât believe you would just forget a dream that made you scream
and
hurl.â
I shrugged. âIâve never been very good at remembering dreams. You better get back to bed.â
She looked at me solemnly. âI know Iâm just your little sister by two years, but you would tell me ifsomething bad was happening to you, right? I mean, I wouldnât tell Mom or anyone. You could trust me.â
I smiled and drew her into a hug. âI know I can trust you. If anything bad was going on, Iâd tell you.â It was a lie, of course, and the lie made me feel even worse. I trusted Jordan. I knew in my heart that she was not a Controller.
Of course, thatâs just what Jake had said about Tom.
I hugged my sister a little closer. I hated the way suspicion had crept into every part of my mind. I hated the way I wasnât sure, not really, totally sure, that I could trust her.
âGood night,â I said. âThanks for rescuing me from that nightmare. Whatever it was.â
She started to walk away. Then she turned, lit from behind by the garish bathroom light. âBefore you started screaming, you were yelling something.â
âWhat?â I asked, afraid of the answer.
She looked puzzled. âI think it was âmaggots.â Something like that.â
I forced a shaky smile. âGood night, Jordan.â
I crawled back into my bed. The pillow was soaked with sweat. The sheets were clammy.
Maggots. Squirming, crawling, busy little white maggots. They were all over a piece of rotting