Weâve told you everything we could at every step.â
Sheâd been hoarding this frustration since shortly after her admittance twenty-one days ago, and it was sweet release now to let it flow. âI donât believe that. Youâve been managing me all three weeks Iâve been here. My nurses wonât even tell me my temperature without asking your permission.â
âWeâre unsure, thatâs all. Weâve been trying to figure things out.â
âBut now you know, I can tell. What is it?â
He breathed in deeply, ponderously, then out again. âWeâre not sureââ
âOh, stop it,â she interrupted, until he held out his hand to stop her.
âAbby, a very aggressive and destructive infection is moving through your body. Weâve never seen anything like it before. Weâve tried to analyze it against every known treatment known to medical science. And frankly, the results so far are inconclusive. But the effects on your body arenât.â
He sighed again, and from the corner of her eye she saw her father look down and wipe his eyes.
âAs you already know, your left arm is fully engaged. The infection is traveling along your neural pathways, your nerves, and simply shutting them off. I donât know how long it will take, but without an effective cureâwhich we donât seem to haveâit will reach your heart at some point in the near future, your brain soon after that.â
âSay it to me.â Her voice was a mixture of dread and defiance. âSay the words.â
Finally, he looked straight into her eyes, his gaze clouded with sadness. âYouâre going to die, Abby. Very soon. I could give you false hope, and I can truthfully say that weâll keep trying. But thereâs very little hope.â
She felt her breathing skip somewhere beyond her control, her lungs fight for breath. The room began to sway. Her thoughts suddenly slowed as if unwilling to process the knowledge pounding at the gates of her conscious mind.
Finally she felt her throat force out a few words.
âSo youâve done all you can for me.â
âNo. We can give you our very best care. Manage your pain. Increase your comfort immeasurably. Iâm so sorry, Abby . . .â
âDoes this have something to do with Narbeliâs murder?â
He shook his head. âNot directly. But it seems your infection started around the same time. I donât know how you could have acquired this thing. Only that itâs on the move, and I have no idea how to stop it.â
She closed her eyes and wished the act could erase the sight of all of themâdoctor and family together.
âPretty ironic, isnât it, Dad?â He looked at her blankly, uncomprehending. âI mean, here you and I have been arguing the last six months over what I should do with my life. How badly I need to figure out what I want to do with my life . And now, it doesnât even matter. Itâs over. Do you think maybe now you and I can start getting along better?â
He shot her a brokenhearted smile. Blackness replaced the white light and stark expressions, then overtook her.
THE NEXT DAY
Abigail awoke to the sight of her father gazing down at her through eyes full of tears. His index finger lay poised atop her hand, grazing it like one afraid to apply too much pressure on a delicate object. Immediately the truth behind his expression burst upon her with an inner sensation like that of being drenched in ice water.
He was already saying good-bye .
No doubt about itâher father was weeping with a shocked distance she had only seen him adopt once before: a week and a half prior, after returning from Narbeliâs gravesite. At the time, she had barely possessed the strength to look about and register anyone elseâs reactions, for the murder had knocked her into a pall of depression from which she had yet to catch her breath. But her