safely on the other side.
To stop it following me through to the reassuringly tatty, twenty-first-century servantsâ quarters.
Because in the here and now, still-unpacked boxes line the corridor â and the normality of that makes me almost giddy with relief.
Just so Iâm absolutely sure that Iâm definitely, positively, safely back in the present day, I turn my head left and get a glimpse inside the dusty, drab room where our old futon is plonked. At the sight of it, I get a flash of memory, an image of the moment I spilt blackcurrant juice on it, when Iâd jumped at a âscaryâ moment in
Scooby-Doo
years ago.
More normality, I realize, picturing the faded stain thatâs still there, usually hidden by an artfully placed cushion. And if I turn my head to the right, Iâm looking directly into âmyâ room. From this position â still star-shaped against the door through to the main house â I canât see much of it except for one plastic black bag of my belongings, which has been hastily dumped on the floor by the removal men and torn at the side. Some familiar pink, polka-dot fabric is poking through the tear, as if my pyjama bottoms are trying to make a run for itâ¦
I canât believe Iâm actually giggling, considering Iâm quietly losing my mind. Though maybe getting hysterical is a symptom of going completelyâ
THUD!
The door thumps against my back and my heart practically gives out.
âEllis? Ellis, are you there?â Mumâs muffled voice calls out.
I let go of my breath like a deflating balloon.
âYes â hold on!â I yelp, whipping myself around and pulling the door open.
The first-floor landing of the main house is â thankfully â just as it should be: scruffy, unloved and empty of everyone except my mother.
âWhat did you close the door for?â Mum asks.
âI didnât! It wasââ I hesitate, noticing that Mum looks worried and tense. Sheâs biting the inside of her mouth the way she always does when sheâs stressed. Usually thatâs to do with bills and rent and lack of money, but itâs not as if Mum has to worry about stuff like that any more.
âWhatâs wrong?â I ask her.
âNothing,â Mum says too quickly, too sharply. âNothingâs wrong. Look, Iâm sorry about being short with you downstairs just now â thereâs just ⦠just a lot to organize.â
I donât get it. Everything about the house is an organizational nightmare, but Mumâs been totally up for it. She was up for it when she strolled around the house with Mr Fraser just now, happily examining every crack, fault and disaster. It was all âexcitingâ first steps in the Shiny New Project.
Whatâs happened in the last few minutes to change that?
âWho were you talking to on the phone?â I ask her, since that might hold the clue.
â It was ⦠it was the internet provider. Boring stuff. Forget it.â
We studied body language in Citizenship at school last term. Apparently, people canât look you in the eye when theyâre lying. Apparently, Mum is lying.
Why would she do that? She tells me everything. We tell each
other
everything. âSecrets arenât good for people,â I remember Mum always saying. Has she conveniently forgotten that?
âYou know, you donât look so well again, Ellis,â says Mum, stepping away from her fib and closer to me. She puts her small, cool hand on my hot forehead. âYou feel a bit clammy.â
OK, now is the time to tell her what I saw â
who
I saw â out on the landing.
âIâm OK, Iâm not sick,â I insist. âItâs this house; itâs making me feel crazy. Just now Iââ
Mumâs phone begins to ring and her already pale face goes chalk white.
âOh, I have to get this, Ellisâ¦â she says, and walks hurriedly