hurting Neli so much right now.
She sat with her mouth open for a while. She thought that she could make him love her, but the thought crossed her mind now that he didn’t give a fuck about her.
“It’s Sasha right?” Neli asked already feeling the answer. Chauncey sighed and then took a pause before answering.
“Yeah it’s Sasha. In fact, it should’ve been Sasha all along.” With that, he hung up, and when she tried to call him back, he sent her straight to voicemail.
At that, Neli began a downpour that no one could save her from. She couldn’t call her friends and tell them about anything that had to do with Chauncey, so she lay on the bed and cried.
So many thoughts ran through her head that she just cried and cried some more, until her eyes burned and were too heavy to open. And then she fell asleep to Destiny’s Child singing especially for her and Chauncey, ‘Is she the reason you don’t call like you used to, fall through my hood like you used to, put it on me hard like you used to…is she the reason that my calls couldn’t reach ya, the deepest of my love couldn’t please ya, la la la la la….’
Chapter 4 - Control
It had been a week since E came and picked up Chauncey’s things and Sasha hadn’t heard from either of them since. Maybe it’s about time that I moved on.
Sasha knew soon she would have to, and there were guys lined up around the block waiting for her so she knew it wouldn’t be hard. She answered the ringing phone.
“St. Peter’s Hospital, pediatrics.”
“I’ve been shot, help me please.”
Sasha tried to remain calm but in an emergency situation, she was the wrong person to contact. She was a panic freak!
“Okay miss this is not emergency dispatch but if you want I can send you an ambulance.” Sasha spoke calm and soothing.
“No, I don’t want no ambulance. I got shot in the back,” the caller said sounding in pain.
Sasha sat at the hospital desk with a confused look on her face.
“You got shot in the back miss and you don’t want an ambulance?”
“Yeah bitch! I got a backshot and that shit felt good as hell!”
“Kim!” Sasha screamed. Then she realized where she was and took her voice down. “Bitch, is you crazy, I’m at work?”
“I know, but you aint doing shit.”
This was true. Sasha began working at the hospital in between class shifts for experience, but she really didn’t do anything.
“Kim you are so stupid. What’s up girl?” Sasha asked munching on some Doritos.
“Nothing.” Kim paused. “If I tell you something Sash, you gotta promise not to be mad.”
Sasha knew that every time Kim said that, it was something crazy. Assuming that Sasha agreed, Kim proceeded.
“I had sex with Blair last week.”
“Kim! Why?” Sasha asked, upset and disappointed at the same time.
Kim had put herself through so much with Blair and nobody wanted to see her go through that again.
“I love him Sash. I mean, I don’t know why, I just do.”
Sasha realized that Kim was going to do what she wanted to do and that Kim wouldn’t look at her as a friend or tell her anything if Sasha got out of character. So Sasha asked the question that Kim had been waiting for all week.
“So, how was it?”
“Girl it was banging! He had me in the Jacuzzi, on the sink, on the floor, in the pussy, in the ass, in the mouth-”
“Okay, okay, alright Kim, I don’t need the visual.”
Sasha thought for a minute about her own boring ass sex life, well the one that didn’t exist since Chauncey left. Sasha began to think the impossible.
“Kim, you think I should invite Chauncey over?”
“For what?” Kim asked, not comprehending.
“For some of what you got the other night. I mean not on some getting back together stuff but just, I don’t know.”
Kim cut Sasha off before she could say anymore.
“Sasha I didn’t want