by the wholesale accuracy of her prediction.
âYouâre still a babe, Carrie,â Sydney whispered, pouring her some more wine. âYou could have any man.â
âI donât want any man,â Carrie whimpered. âI only want Jack. Only Jack. Only him.â
âThat guy Alan,â Sydney noted, âwho takes the Judo class. I know he likes you. Sometimes it seems like his eyes are stuck to your tits with adhesive.â
âPlease!â
âItâs true.â
âJack only walked out yesterday, Sydney, probably for a girl fifteen years my junior. You really think I care about anything else at the moment?â
Sydney had great legs; long and lithe and small-kneed. Gazelle legs, llama legs. She crossed them.
âIâm simply observing that Jack isnât the only shark in the ocean.â
Carrie took a tissue from her sports bag and dusted her cheeks with it.
âI remember the very first time I ever met Jack, waiting for a bus outside the National Portrait Gallery. A Sunday afternoon. He had his coat buttoned up all wrong and I pointed it out to him and we started talking â¦â Carrie stopped speaking and hiccuped.
Sydney chewed her bottom lip. That old three button trick, she was thinking. The slimy bastard.
âYou know, Carrie,â she said sweetly. âYouâre still so beautiful. Youâre still the biggest lily in the pond. Youâre still floating on the surface and bright enough to catch the attention of any insect or amphibian that might just happen to be passing.â She paused. âEven a heron,â she added, as an afterthought.
Carrie scrabbled in her sports bag. She grabbed her purse, opened it, took out a twenty-pound note to pay the barman for the bottles of wine.
âMy treat,â Sydney interjected.
Carrie paid him anyway. She was about to shut her purse but then paused and delved inside it.
âLook,â she said, her voice trembling, holding aloft a blue card.
Sydney put out her hand. âWhat is it?â
âOur season ticket to the ballet. We went every week. It was one of those routines â¦â
âWell,â Sydney took the ticket and perused it, âyou shall go to the ball, Cinders.â
âWhat?â
âYou and me. Weâll go together. When is it?â
âWednesday.â
Sydney handed the card back. âFine.â
As it turned out, Sydney couldnât make it. She rang Carrie at the last minute. Carrie answered the phone wrapped up in a towel, pink from a hot bath.
âWhat? You canât make it?â
âBut I want you to go, anyway. Find someone else.â
âThere is no one else. It doesnât matter, though. I wasnât really in the mood myself.â
âCarrie, youâve got to go. Alone if needs be. Itâs the principle of the thingâ
âI know, but itâs just â¦â
âWhat?â
âItâs kind of like a regular box and we share it with some other people and if I go alone â¦â
âSo? Thatâs great. It means you wonât feel entirely isolated, which is ideal.â
âAnd then thereâs this fat old man called Heinz whoâs always there. A complete bore. We really hate him.â
âHeinz?â
âYes. Jack always found him such a pain. We even tried to get a transfer â¦â
âBollocks. Just go. Ignore him. Whatâs the ballet?â
â Petrushka .â
âYip!â
âIâve seen it before. Itâs not one of my particular favourites.â
âGo anyway. Youâve got to start forging your own path, Carrie. Youâll thank me after. Honestly.â
Sheâd made a special effort, with her hair and her make-up. She was wearing a dress that sheâd bought for the previous Christmas. It was a glittery burgundy colour. Her lips matched. The box was empty when she arrived. She felt stupid. She sat down.
After five