bedroom, where he kept the velvet bag that contained his tallit shawl and the little leather tefillin boxes. Every day he shaved the top of his head so that a toupee could be his head covering, and the one he wore to pray was in the bedroom too. He never kept his yarmulke-toupee in the bathroom.
Rabbi Hiyya bar Ashi had written that a man whose mind is conflicted should not pray; Lepidopt hoped God would forgive him for that too.
Three
T he truck cab smelled like book paper and tobacco.
âWhen we do go,â Daphne said, cheerfully enough, âwe can go to Grammarâs house again too, and pull up the bricks. A- zoo -sa,â she added derisively, seeing the Azusa exit through the windshield. And Claremont and Montclair were coming up.
She used to think Azusa was an interesting name for a city, but recently she had heard that it meant âA-to-Z USA,â and now she classed it with other ridiculous words, like brouhaha and patty melt.
She also disapproved of a city called Claremont being right next to one named Montclair. She thought there should be a third one, Mairn-Clot.
Traffic was heavy on the eastbound 10, and an hour after they had left Pasadena their six-year-old Ford pickup truck was still west of the 15, with San Bernardino and their house still twenty miles ahead. The afternoon sunlight glittered fiercely on the chrome all around them; brake lightsglowed like coals. Daphne knew the traffic justified her fatherâs decision not to go look at the Chinese Theater today, and she had stopped sulking about it.
âWeâd have to split it with Bennett and Moira,â her father said absently, his right foot gunning the accelerator while his left foot let the clutch out every few seconds in little surges. The gearshift lever was on the steering column, and it didnât seem likely that heâd be reaching up to shift out of first gear anytime soon. âIf thereâs really gold under the bricks,â he added.
Daphne nodded. âThatâs right. If you donât want to do what Grammar wanted you to do with it.â
âAs in, she told me about it, and didnât tell them. Why is everybody going east out of L.A. on a Sunday afternoon?â
Daphne nodded. âShe knew theyâve got plenty of money already, and thatâs why she told you. Herâlast wishes.â Last wishes was a good phrase.
âIâll think about it. It might not be gold. Thoughâwow, look at that,â he said, his finger tapping the windshield. An old Lockheed Neptune bomber was flying north over the freeway ahead of them, its piston engines roaring. Its shadow flickered over a patch of cars a mile ahead.
âThere must be fires in the mountains,â Daphne said.
âItâs the season for it. Weâll probablyââ He paused, and glanced at her. âYouâre worrying about me,â he said. âAnd itâs not to do with money. Iâcanât quite get the reason, just a sort of image of me, and worry like some kind of steady background music.â He peered at her again. âWhat about?â
Daphne shrugged and looked away, embarrassed that he had caught her thoughts. âJustâeverybody leaves you. Your dad ran off and then your mom died in a car crash, and Mom died two years ago, and now Grammar.â She looked at him, but he was watching the traffic again. âIâm not going to leave you.â
âThanks, Daph. I wonâtââ He stopped. â Now youâre shocked. What did you see?â
âYou think your mother killed herself!â
âOh.â He exhaled, and she sensed that he was finallynear tears, so she looked out the side window at a railway bridge over a shallow arroyo. âWell, yes,â he said, with evident control, âIânow you mention itâI think she did. Iâm sorry, I shouldnât haveâI guess she just couldnât handle it, foreclosure on the house, got