Throwing Love #4 (Throwing Love #4) by Nella Tyler Read Free Book Online Page B

loved that human being.
    Loved. Yes, I said it. I loved Bennett Thomas and he was too
stupid to see what was right in front of him. He was going to choose the game,
his career, over love, over me and probably never look back. Well, I wasn't
about to sit around and watch it all fall apart. If he wanted me go, I would do
that easily just for him.
    “I want you to chose me, Bennett. Please, this time for the
sake of our relationship chose
me. You don't need this practice and you know it.”
    “Emmi, please, things are getting way too heated right now
and it's unnecessary. This is my job. I don't tell you what to do about your
career, so please don't tell me how to handle mine.”
    “My career doesn't demand me to not have a social life,
that's the difference. My career doesn't prevent me from falling in love. There
is a big difference.”
    “Stop it.”
    “Bennett, I love you. But I can't do this anymore. Your
behavior is tearing us apart. You can have both, but you won't allow it. I
don't know why you are doing this to us.”
    He stopped. “You love me?”
    “Yes, you idiot, I love you. Don't you feel the same way?”
    He smiled sadly. “Yes, Emmi, I love you, too. More than you
know. But this is my career, my dream – I can't just give up on it. What
would I do? Become a coach? This is what I have to do to be in the major
leagues.”
    “That's bullshit and you know it. I have watched my father
mentor players my whole life. Not one of them had to give up his life for the
game. You get your ass to those scheduled practices, but that's it you don't
give up everything.”
    “I'm sorry, I have to go.”
    He turned to leave, and I literally felt my heart break in
two. He wasn't listening to me at all. I knew what I was talking about, and yet
he didn't care. He was ignoring everything I was saying, dismissing my
experience all because his coach called. He was acting like he had no backbone
at all. He was hurting me, breaking me in two, and he didn't care. At the end
of the day, he was going to walk out on me and choose baseball over me. My
blood pressure was going through the roof, and all I saw was red. I was in a
fit of rage and without thinking I yelled out, “I'm sick of this, Bennett, and
I'm not doing it anymore. You either choose me or you choose baseball, but you
don't get to treat me this way and expect me to stick around. I'm done.”
    He stopped with his back to me.

 
    Chapter Eleven

 
    Shell-shocked, I couldn't believe the words that had come
out of my mouth. I never would have thought that I would give anyone that kind
of ultimatum, but Bennett had pushed me too far. I wasn't just going to bow
down like my father asked me to and I was done waiting like Connie wanted me to
do. I was sick of being second to a game when I had given Bennett my all. I
knew he could juggle both – he had been doing it just fine before he
screwed up on his practices. But he wasn’t even willing to go back to that. I
was just expected to live that way while he went off and went into the major
leagues. What he didn't realize was that I wanted to be by his side as he made
it there. Not pushed aside while he got there and then ended up with another
girl. And that was inevitable. If he kept pushing me aside, I would leave, and
when he made it to the big leagues, he would just meet someone new like I had
never mattered. Well, I wasn't going to have it. He was either going to choose
me and put our relationship first or he could lose me all together.
    He turned around slowly and faced me. I couldn't really read
his expression, but if I had to guess, it was somewhere between shock and
anger. I knew that our conversation was about to get really ugly, but I wasn't
sure what to do about it. I had said what I needed and it was now up to him to
make a decision. If he made a bad one, there was nothing that I could do about
it. I would not be chasing him for love any longer.
    “I cannot believe what I'm hearing right now. Are you
seriously