had surfaced clearer than he’d expected, but he
was frustrated to realize that he couldn’t describe the man in
the bowler hat. He only recalled the impression he’d left so
many years ago, but Zane supposed that was enough.
He played with the ice in his glass of Coke, fighting the
desire to pick up Kelly’s drink and throw it back. His one year
sober chip was heavy in his pocket. Ty wasn’t drinking, putting
up a united front with Zane so it wouldn’t be quite so hard to
fight the urge to indulge. Zane appreciated the gesture, but he
hated to tell Ty that no matter what he did, Zane still suffered.
“What year was it?” Ty asked.
“2003. Our tenth anniversary.”
“And you don’t remember what he looked like?”
“Couldn’t pick him out of a lineup.”
Ty nodded, looking almost relieved. Zane studied him for
a moment, wondering why. Was it possible Ty knew the man
he was talking about?
“So that was your first foray into the gay, huh?” Digger
asked. They were far enough into the night that Ty and Zane
were the only ones who were sober.
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Zane laughed. “I wouldn’t call it a foray, but yeah, I guess.
I didn’t often notice anyone other than my wife, actually. The
first actual foray didn’t come until I was in Miami.”
“That was after your wife passed away, right?” Owen asked.
Zane nodded. The man had been making an effort, Zane
would give him that. He looked supremely uncomfortable
whenever Ty and Zane displayed any kind of affection, but he
was keeping his mouth shut.
The conversation drifted into an awkward lul . Zane
glanced at Ty and patted his back pocket. He’d stopped at
one point in the night and bought a pack of cigarettes and a
lighter. Ty hadn’t said anything, seeming to know that giving
in to this one vice would help him fight the rest.
Zane excused himself and headed outside to light up.
He leaned against the old brick in an alcove off the sidewalk,
trying to clear his head and enjoying the cigarette just a little
too much. He could tell Ty was feeling guilty that they were
here, and part of that was knowing what the atmosphere
would do to Zane. Ty hadn’t known what they were getting
into down here, though, and none of the others knew Zane
was an alcoholic. It was no one’s fault, but Zane was still
growing annoyed by it al .
The longer he fought the pull of all that alcohol, the
meaner he would get.
A man strol ing along the sidewalk bumped into him as
he leaned against the wal . Zane peered around the corner of
the alcove as the stranger turned. His hand reached for Zane’s
waist as if to steady himself.
“I’m sorry, love. I didn’t see you there,” he said, patting
Zane’s side in an overly friendly gesture. His British accent
was pleasant, and it immediately reminded Zane of Ty and the
Christmas cruise they’d shared. He was handsome, with blue
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eyes that Zane could just barely see in the dim light, scruffy
blond hair, and a smattering of rakish stubble. He had full lips
that Zane’s eyes were immediately drawn to, and though he
was half a foot shorter than Zane, he was fit and muscular.
Zane gave him a second look over, appreciating the view.
He nodded. “Don’t worry about it.”
The man was patting his pockets, an unlit cigarette
between his lips. He grinned. “I see you suffer the same vice.”
Zane held up his cigarette. “Guilty. I can’t say I’m suffering
though.”
The stranger laughed. “Filthy habit, I’m told. And the
company is often lacking. I can’t say that’s true tonight.” He
stuck out his hand. “My name’s Liam. Liam Bell.”
Zane offered his hand and his name, finding himself
growing warmer with the overt flirtation. Liam’s hand was
rough and strong, and Zane liked the feel of it as he gripped it.
Liam continued to pat his pockets, a frown creasing his
brow. “I seem to have misplaced my lighter; you wouldn’t
mind if I nicked yours, would you?”
Zane
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