fatherâs hearing, how one goes about buying a cheap piano. Both times Ben said he had to think about it, and my father just went on silently doing whatever he was doing at his jumbled desk. Late in the afternoon, when I thought Fred might be in a better mood, I tried him. Though calm, he said, âI declared I wouldnât help, and Iâm a man of my word.â
Even later, when I judged that my father may have softened to a call for helpâhe was reading the evening newspaper and appeared to be far removed from the realities in his immediate household, and therefore more easily persuaded to face them with detachmentâI brought up the subject again, in a louder than necessary voice.
âBen, how can we find a piano? Where?â
The paper didnât move from its position in front of my fatherâs face.
âIâm still thinking about it,â Ben said.
My voice grew louder. âBut the book Miss Bunce gave me to learn from has sixty-four pages, and I only have seventeen days.â
Without moving the newspaper so that we could see his face, myfather said, very low, âWhen you want something, you have to let other people know.â
âWe have let you and Fred know,â I said indignantly.
âYou have to let other people know, people who may have cheap pianos that they wish to sell,â the voice spoke from behind the paper.
âBut we donât know who the people are who have cheap pianos and want to sell them,â Ben said.
âYou have to find them, dig them out, separate them from all the people who donât have cheap, ugly pianos for sale.â
I felt like punching the newspaper. âHow?â I said desperately.
âYouâll have to deduce the answer for that yourself. Iâm busy reading a notice about an auction in Marin where I may pick up one of the tapestries Mr. William Randolph Hearst missed.â
Ben was no more intelligent than I. His intelligence was, characteristically, just put to use more quickly than mine.
âMay we see that newspaper when youâre through?â he asked politely.
âYou may, if you donât construe this as aid or report it to Fred.â
A moment later, with me at his shoulder, Ben found a column headed, âMerchandise For Sale.â One two-line ad caught our fast and slow intelligence. Ben read it aloud. âPiano. Uprt. Chp.â The address was on a business street on the way to our school. The ad was signed âA. Forelli.â
My father suggested that I stop in to see Mr. Forelli in the morning, but Ben could not come with me because âNobody, not even Ben, should influence my decision whether or not to buy a cheap, ugly piano.â The responsibility was to be mine alone.
The next morning, Ben left me at the addressâa recently opened dry-cleaning shop; Mr. Forelli was its proprietor.
âAvanti, Avanti,â he said. âYour mamma, she send a little girl to look first? Câmon, itâs in the back.â
The instrument had a muddy-brown, scarred case and chipped, yellowing keys. Its top was higher than Miss Bunceâs pianoâs, and its backboard was nicked around the pedals. In large, gold Gothic lettering above the keyboard, âNeedhamâ was printed, and beneath that, âNew York.â
âYou see?â said Mr. Forelli, âSheâs American.â
To the right of Needham and New York was the designation, âUpright Concert Grand.â I didnât ask what that meant and Mr. Forelli didnât say.
âYou know Milano?â he asked. âThe shoemaker had this store before? He liked music, so he had this here. When he die, his wife, she say she ainât payinâ to move it outâ¦I can have it. But I donât want it. So he liked music? So why couldnât he listen to the radio like me?â
From under a pressing table, he pulled a dusty bench over for me. Even with my fledgling instruction, I