Two for Sorrow by Nicola Upson Read Free Book Online Page B

mother—still weak after the birth—must have struggled out of bed and walked over to the window for a final glimpse of her child. What in God’s name must she be thinking? Amelia wondered. Was she trying to imagine the fine, wealthy lady who would bring her daughter up, or did she know in her heart that Walters’s was the last touch which the baby would know? The thought made her desperate to see Lizzie and she hurried up to the nursery. When she opened the door, the child was standing over by the window and she turned an excited face to her mother.
    â€˜It’s so cold now, Mummy. Do you think it’s going to snow?’
    â€˜Oh, it’s bound to soon,’ Amelia said, bending down to cuddle her. They looked out of the window together, trying to see beyond their own reflection to the darkness of the yard and the houses opposite and, as she caught sight of herself next to her daughter’s innocence, it seemed to Amelia that her own face had grown so much older in the last few months. If only it were just the physical shell that decayed with age, she thought, and not the heart: the world—her world—would be a very different place.
    â€˜What’s that, Mummy?’ Lizzie asked, pointing to the handful of five-pound notes that her mother had forgotten to put back in the bureau before coming upstairs.
    â€˜That’s Christmas,’ she said, smiling.
    Lizzie frowned. ‘But Christmas is too far away.’
    â€˜Oh, it’s only a few weeks, and they’ll fly by quickly enough as long as you’re good.’ She hugged her daughter tightly. ‘And I promise you—it will be the best Christmas that any little girl could have.’

Chapter Two
    Josephine tore the sheet of paper out of the typewriter and added it to the others on her desk, pleased to see that the pile was steadily growing but relieved to be able to step back into the present for a while. She couldn’t quite put her finger on why, but the conversation with Celia had unsettled her and she found retracing the origins of Lizzie Sach’s suicide unaccountably depressing. Standing up to stretch her legs, she looked around the room and realised that its measured comfort and privacy were suddenly not at all what she wanted; right now, she felt like some company. It was a little after nine o’clock and still early enough to while away a couple of hours in the bar, but she was reluctant to run the risk of getting embroiled in the club’s politics and, in any case, small talk with comparative strangers wasn’t really what she was looking for. Perhaps it was time she owned up to being in town and went to see Archie? He wouldn’t mind being interrupted at this time of night and she knew she could rely on him to dilute Celia’s disapproval with a genuine interest in what she was doing. Even if he was out, a walk through the West End at night would cheer her after an evening spent with Sach and Walters.
    She changed quickly and found Archie’s flat-warming present among the pile of packages that Robert had brought up earlier, then went downstairs to the bar to collect a bottleof wine. It was quiet for the time of night and the only person Josephine recognised among the handful of women was Geraldine Ashby. She sat alone at a table, and Josephine was surprised to see that—unguarded and, as she thought, unscrutinised—Geraldine’s face wore a very different expression from its usual blasé cheerfulness. Tonight, as she stared across the room at a group of young nurses who had obviously just come off duty, her sadness made her seem remote and untouchable. The mask fell effortlessly back into place as soon as she realised she had company, but the contrast made her fleeting melancholy even more striking.
    â€˜Josephine—thank God,’ she said, coming over to the bar. ‘This place is like a morgue tonight. You’ll have a drink with me, I