in her boudoir undressing her while she regaled him with all the latest
on-dits.
He did not believe he would find the experience wildly arousing.
But had he married her, their love would have had a chance to grow and develop. She might have adjusted to him and he to her. They might have been happy. Might have been! And might not have been. But he did not want his nostalgic dream of the past to die entirely. If his love for Susan could die a natural death, then perhaps there was no such thing as love. Or not for him, anyway. Alexandra and Edmund had it, of course. Sometimes it was painful to live in the same house as those two. Not that they ever embarrassed him and Madeline by so much as touching in public, of course. But they did not need to touch. Their every glance was a caress and a communication.
Well, he thought, glancing across the room to where Miss Jennifer Simpson was dancing with some fresh-faced youth, her face aglow, perhaps he would be able to love again. With a love that would last for a lifetime.
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E LLEN WAS TALKING with Lady Amberley when Lord Eden came to claim his waltz with her after supper. She was looking forward to it immensely. She had waltzed once before that evening, with Lieutenant Byng, the flame-haired husband of her particular friend, but he did not dance the steps with anything more than competence. Lord Eden waltzed well. Ellen had seen him perform the dance before. And of all other dances, she loved the waltz.
She had enjoyed herself this evening. She had been without a partner for only one set, the one before supper, but she had been happy rather than disappointed about that, since Charlie had come to take her on his arm, and she had been able to relax and catch her breath and go in to supper with him. And they had sat with the Byngs and the Clearys and the Slatterys, and she had had to make no effort at all to make polite conversation. There had been a great deal of laughter at their table.
She had danced every other set and enjoyed lively conversations with her husbandâs friends, with Colonel Huxtable, and with the handsome, kindly Earl of Amberley. And with Lord Eden, of course, during the first set they had danced together.
But now it was time to waltz. She smiled and placed her hand in Lord Edenâs as he exchanged a few words with his sister-in-law.
âHas Madeline invited you to the picnic tomorrow?â he asked as he led her toward the floor.
âNo,â she said.
âShe doubtless has asked Miss Simpson already,â he said. âWe are getting together a group to go out into the Forest of Soignes. It is beautiful out there. Have you been? We are hoping that you will be willing to act as chaperone, yet again. I hope it is not becoming tedious to you to do so, maâam. And I hope Charlie is not getting cross at your frequent absences. But if he is, it is entirely his own fault, as I shall tell him.â He grinned. âHe can come too, if he wishes.â
âIt would be cruel,â she said, her eyes sparkling back at him. âAnd on his day off duty, too.â
âWe shall leave him at home, then, shall we?â he said. âAnd steal away into the forest to enjoy ourselves.â
âJust like children escaping their parentsâ supervision,â she said with a laugh. âBut I do thank you, my lord, and Lady Madeline. I hoped when we brought Jennifer out here that she would have plenty of entertainment, but I did not dream that there would be quite so much. I know she is enjoying herself enormously. And who knows when it will all come to an end?â
He set his hand at her waist and took her hand in his. âYou must not even hint at such things during a ball, maâam,â he said with a smile. âYou know army etiquette.â
âIâm sorry,â she said. And resolutely shut her mind to the certain knowledge that all these splendidly uniformed officers would be engaged in perhaps the deadliest