sometimes.â
âIf you intend to make it to Arizona alone, you might ought to keep this for yourself.â He hefted the gun before her.
âIâm thinking youâll be needing it more than me,â she said. âYou know how to use one of those?â
âIâve shot one a time or two.â
âIf youâre going to carry that, youâd best learn.â
âI aim to.â
A sad look passed across her face that he thought was pointed more at him than it was a reflection on the loss of her husband. She washed the dishes while he sat by the fire, and when she was through she petted her milk cow, obviously lost in thought. After a while, she put her hands to the small of her back, arching and stretching against the sore muscles the hard shovel work had likely given her. Newt couldnât help but notice that for an old woman, her breasts were especially upright and prominent where the front of her dress pulled tight against them. He averted his eyes, ashamed at himself, but it was already too late.
âIâm going to my wagon alone, so donât you be getting any ideas,â she said.
âI donât know what you mean.â
âI saw you looking at me. Might be youâre a good man, and Lord knows Iâm twice your age. But I saw you looking like that just the same.â
âI never.â
âMight be that Iâll have to take another husband one of these days, but donât go getting notions that you can take advantage of me. My Amos was a good man. Iâll be a long time forgetting him.â
âYes, maâam, but I never . . .â
âOh, donât blubber and dodge around it. I saw the urge building in you. My Amos was a man of urges himself. There were times when Amos was younger that I felt like I was married to a rutting billy goat.â
Again, Newt didnât know what to say and felt his face and neck growing warm with embarrassment. No woman he had ever met talked like that.
She stared at him, as if weighing a solemn matter. âIâm about half a mind to take you to my wagon, as sinful and horrible as that sounds. Itâs going to be a long night, and I donât relish being alone.â
âMaâam . . .â
âOh, donât go to stuttering again. You come in my wagon on the sneak, and Iâll show you the business end of my Sharps.â
âIâll stand guard. You rest assured that me or nothing else will bother you tonight.â
âDonât mind me. I guess Iâve gotten so old that Iâm not embarrassed to be thinking aloud,â she said. âMy mother used to say that I was too forward for a proper lady, but I found it was helpful to keep men off guard. A man off guard is easier to get to do what you want him to and less likely to bother you. A sharp tongue will vex many a man.â
âYouâre the vexingest woman I ever met.â
Her laugh was as dry and crackly as the wind through the grass. âOh, youâll meet some young thing that will vex you worse. Thatâll be how you know sheâs the one to marry.â
She went to her wagon without another word to him. He led her team and the Circle Dot horse on a long walk to the river to water them, and all the time while he was going out of camp he was expecting her to hear him and think he was stealing her horses. He believed her when she said she knew how to use that Sharps rifle.
She didnât raise any protest, so he assumed she didnât hear him leave. But unknown to him, she did hear him and sat up waiting for him to come back to see if she had been right about him. She was peering out of a slit in the wagon cover when he finally returned an hour later.
âWhatâs your name? I never asked it,â she whispered from inside the wagon.
âNewt Jones.â He rigged some hobbles out of a length of rope he found lying on the ground and hobbled her horses and turned them loose to pick