shimmering in the morning sun.
I get the feeling Iâm going to sneeze. I shove my hand in my pocket for a tissue, but there isnât one. Instead, as I pull my hand back out, Mumâs note for the post office falls to the ground. I start to bend over for it, but get that low-down twinge again. It must show, because Mr Smith says, âAll right, Amy?â and picks it up himself. I tell him Iâm okay.
He hands me the note and I say, âItâs about a dog we found. He just turned up at our back door.â Mr Smith looks genuinely interested and I show him the note.
He takes it and smiles. âA brown dog, eh? As it happens, Iâm very partial to dogs.â
My heart lifts at the thought of someone liking Toffee without even seeing him. âWeâve called him Toffee because of his colour.â
He grins. âCaramel or treacle?â
âDefinitely caramel,â I tell him, and we both laugh.
âAnd you hope no oneâs going to claim him.â
I nod.
âFingers crossed, then.â He hands me the note, and I put it back in my pocket.
Shaunâs come to sit in the revision session with us. Mr Smith has put him at the back, probably because heâs head and shoulders taller than anyone else.
Weâre revising English Lit and Mr Smith suggests Kirsty reads aloud from Lord of the Flies . Which she does, describing how Ralph courageously searches the island for âthe beastâ. She reads clearly and dramatically, with real feeling.
Mr Smith says, âThank you, Kirsty. That was great â very expressive.â He catches Neil Betts yawning; books bore him, even Lord of the Flies . To be honest, Iâm surprised he bothered to turn up this morning. In a minute, Mr Smithâs going to get his own back â heâll ask Neil to read. But Neilâs let off the hook because the Head opens the door and beckons Mr Smith. âCan you spare a minute?â
As the two of them leave, to stand just outside the door, a couple of chairs scrape back. A feeling of relaxation runs round the room. Mr Wilsonâs âminuteâ could turn into anything up to a quarter of an hour. When Kirsty realizes Iâll carry on revising, she draws an imaginary halo over my head. My grin indicates she can think what she likes.
One afternoon last term Mr Smith asked me to stay behind to discuss my homework. Until that moment Iâd been thinking Iâd done quite well, but now I was starting to think I must have written total nonsense.
I suddenly felt deflated.
The chair he pulled forward for me squeaked in the quiet classroom. âThis is a good piece of work, Amy.â
I thought I hadnât heard properly. âSorry?â
âItâs great,â he said. âSit down for a moment.â
âThank you.â
He smoothed open my exercise book. âYouâve given me what I asked for. And no more. No waffle.â
He leaned back, hands behind his head. He smiled at me. âWell done.â
I thought that was all he wanted to say; that I should thank him again and leave. But he didnât seem in any hurry. âYouâre a clever girl, Amy. Forgetting GCSE results for the moment, what are your post-A Level plans? Have you thought about college?â
Warning bells clanged in my head. College, university. Leaving home. No one to look after Mum. Careful â donât give too much away.
A question mark hung in his voice: âPerhaps youâve not thought about it yet.â
Was he waiting for me to say something? âIâm not sure Iâd want to move far away.â
He chuckled. âSo it wonât be Oxford or Cambridge. Do I sense youâre a home bird?â
As well as silly dreams about Australia, there are times I wonder what it would be like to take off. Go anywhere. Right now I canât, of course. But maybe â if Mumâs health improves â one day I might.
I changed the subject.