about to get a reminder of what could happen when she unleashed her temper. But if it wasnâtâ¦
She couldnât even consider it.
After half an eternity, the footsteps drew near enough for a shadow to fall across her field of vision. Then Micah stood there, looking down at her. She stared back, trying to discern his intentions from his body language and expression, but he was giving her no hintsâuntil he unclipped his disruptor and slowly raised it to aim directly at her heart.
She watched in disbelief, her mind nearly as stunned as her body. Not Micah! Fahla, not him of all Alseans!
But there he stood, one twitch of a finger away from blowing her chest open.
She strained against the blanket thrown over her senses, desperate to understand whether this was real or not. Surely not; why would he use the live immobilizer if he wanted to kill her?
Unlessâ¦maybe he wanted her to see her assassin before she died. To know just how blind she had been.
Her mind raced over the possibilities as to who might have ordered her death. There were a disturbingly large number of them. Besides the usual pretenders jostling for political position, she had made enemies when she bypassed both the High Council and the main Council to break Fahlaâs covenant. Four moons later, the voices calling her a war criminal had not gone away. Granting amnesty to the same Voloth soldiers who had killed so many Alseans hadnât been a popular decision either. Aldirk assured her that the agitators were a small, powerless minority not worth her concernâbut Aldirk cared only about political dangers, not physical ones.
And the person in charge of her physical safety was the same one who was currently threatening it.
Micah watched her, his expression giving nothing away, and Tal thought it rather incongruous that she should be so aware of the birdsong at a time like this. The forest was ringing with it as birds of several species voiced their existence, their territory, their suitability as mates. Life was in motion, all around them, and death was simply one more part of that cycle. She wished she could close her eyes and listen. A sense of calm flowed through her, and she felt ready for what came next. If she had to die, at least this was a pleasant place to do it.
Micah lowered his arm, clipped the disruptor back to his belt, and took a small control pad from his pocket.
The sudden release of her body was nearly as debilitating as the paralysis. She went limp as a sleeping newborn and blinked repeatedly, grimacing when her lids grated over dry eyes. Finally, she rolled over and pushed herself upright, getting used to movement again as she glared up at her Chief Guardian. Now that the threat had ended, so had her moment of clarity and peace, and Micahâs anger made it worse as it bombarded her still-shaken senses. She couldnât get her blocks up and didnât appreciate the feeling of being so out of control.
âWhat the shek do you think youâre doing?â she demanded.
âShowing you what an idiot you are!â Micah shoved the control pad back into his pocket, returning her glare in equal measure. âYou think this is some kind of game, slipping your Guards, making me look like a fool? Thereâs a damned good reason you have Guards, and you of all people should know that. What if Iâd been sent by someone else, someone with an eye on your title? Youâre not invincible!â
âNeither am I your trainee! You presume too much on our friendship, Colonel. I am your Lancer, and youâve just committed a level-four state crime. Are you trying to destroy yourself? Because Iâm more than tempted!â
âGo ahead! Better I should be destroyed than you!â
Startled, Tal straightened up from her aggressive stance. âWhat does that mean?â
âIt means youâre choosing a poor path! You donât care about your safety, you donât care about your friends,