expect complete obedience.” He added another finger into my tiny entrance, spreading me wider than I’d ever been there.
I forced myself not to tense by willpower alone, because it was incredibly strange to feel so full that way. “I’m not sure I’m ready for that.” The words poured from my lips breathlessly as he increased the rhythm making me more than a little uncomfortable at the new sensation. My fears were valid, because what he was asking for meant giving over all my insecurities, and inexperience to him.
“You’re ready for more than you know, but a few things I’ll take slow.” He eased his fingers out, and I admit I was relieved to have that pressure gone. “Kitten, you either belong to me or you don’t. No one but you can make that decision. I’m going to clean up, when you’ve made up your mind join me downstairs, or ask Joel to drive you home. He’s waiting in the kitchen.” Without another word, he lifted me from his lap, sat me down on the couch, and walked away.
I sat there dumbfounded, the leather of the couch cold on my bare ass. Basically he was telling me that what happened in his car, and that restaurant would happen again. His attitude toward the action wasn’t going to change. It was pretty damn obvious he felt no remorse for what he’d done, and if I was going to be his I’d better accept that this was who he was. I’d have to be crazy to accept what he was offering. The sex was incredible albeit intense, but there had to be more in a relationship, didn’t there? What the hell did I really know about them, though? He was my first.
My breathing was labored as I fought my mental instincts to get up and walk down to that kitchen. It was the right thing to do, probably the smartest decision I could ever make, so why wasn’t I running? I had a great job, a best friend who loved spending time with me, my life was really good.
So what if it was a little boring? Okay, and unfulfilling when I considered how often I’d thought about Seth in the months I’d stayed away. A person could live without sex! Standing up, I firmed my resolve, smoothed down my skirt, and walked out of the room with every intention of getting Joel to drive me home. When I reached the staircase, though, I turned back toward Seth’s room and walked that way instead.
I was obviously an idiot, because the thought of not being with Seth was worse than sacrificing my self-respect by staying with him. Hearing the shower running, I turned my step that way, walked inside, and stripped down. Joining him there was accepting I belonged to him without question. His smile showed how pleased he was and he pulled me into his arms, hugging me tightly.
“I’m glad you stayed.” He spent the next half hour showing me just how happy he was at my decision and made me feel that it was definitely the right choice. Moving back into the bedroom later, we continued to love well into the night. I was exhausted when he finally pulled me close to his chest to sleep, but all the concerns I had about staying had been conveniently wiped from my mind. When his alarm clock went off the next morning, I stretched like the kitten he always called me, not in the least irritable after the night we’d shared. Seth’s side of the bed was empty, and I was a little disappointed that he wasn’t here to say good morning.
“Joel’s bringing up coffee.” He walked out of the bathroom, freshly showered a towel wrapped around his waist. We’d definitely gotten a little dirty after our shower last night, and I slid out of bed, bringing the sheet with me to take my own. He stood in front of me blocking my way, and I looked up in confusion until he lowered his lips to mine, kissing me passionately. Wrapping my arms around his neck, I smiled as we kissed, amazed that this gorgeous man seemed to want me as much as I wanted him.
“Sorry it took so long.” Joel’s voice