wouldnât you?â She watched his steak knife pause, and after a moment he actually put down the cutlery and took a drink of water before speaking. He was unsure if heâd misheard, because it was such a guarded secretâone the Kolovskys dreaded getting outâsurely the Assistant PA couldnât know?
âDo you come from a large family?â Zakahr asked instead of answering.
âIâve got a half-sister.â She saw him frown, and realised she was making no sense. And though she was really too weary to explain herself, so much had been bottled inside for so long that Lavinia found herself opening up. âMy mum died last year.â
âIâm sorry,â Zakahr said, as was polite, but Lavinia gave a tight shrug.
âShe lived longer than expected,â Lavinia said. âIâm rather amazed that she made it into her fortiesâmy mum was someone who really didnât take care of herself.â She pushed the risotto around her plateâhungry, but not, angry, but not. Just sharing her burden, just voicing it, might bring fresh perspective.
âWhat about your father?â Zakahr pushed.
âI donât have a father,â she said. âWell, I donâtâ¦â
âYou donât keep in touch?â
âI donât know who he is.â She gave a tight smile that was born from embarrassment. âNeither did my mother.â
âI see.â
âI doubt it.
âLook.â Lavinia gave up with her food. âMy half-sister is younger than meâ much younger. She lives with her father and his new partner. It was bad enough leaving her there when my mother was aliveâI know what I went through as a childâbut now that sheâs goneâ¦well, I know that Kevin doesnât want her, and nor does his new partner. Iâm trying to get custody, but theyâre opposing itâ¦â
Zakahr looked up, unable to imagine the high-fashion, rather dizzy Lavinia taking on the role of single mum. But since the moment he had met her she had surprised him.
âI thought you said that they didnât want her?â Zakahr frowned. âWhat is her name?â
âRachael, and sheâs four.â Her tense mouth softenedeven as she said the name. âThey donât want her. But Mum had a life insurance policy, and thereâs a small trust for herâtheyâd get paid. Not a huge amount, but enough to make it worth their while to keep her. They deny itâs about money, of course, but I know Iâm right.â
âSo how do you know that they donât want her? Really know?â Zakahr askedâbecause he dealt only in fact.
âHer dadâs got two older boys who can do no wrong, and his partnerâs got two little girls from another relationship. And now theyâve just had a baby of their own.â
âA large blended family,â Zakahr said, but Lavinia screwed up her nose.
âRachael doesnât fit into the blend,â Lavinia said. âSheâs clever, sheâs a serious little thing, and they just have no time for her. I buy her clothes, but I go there and the girls are wearing them while Rachaelâs in rags. She spends most of her time in her room.â He saw the flash of tears in her eyes as she took a large gulp of water. âItâs the hardest thing to explain,â Lavinia admitted. âItâs actually impossible to explain. I used to see her once a fortnight, and if I argued or pointed anything outâwell, I just didnât get to see her the next time.â
âSo youâve stayed quiet?â
âDo you know how hard it is to stay quiet when you know a child is suffering?â
Zakahr said nothing.
âI arranged some childcare for herâit had a kindergarten programme. I told Debbieâ¦â
âThe partner?â Zakahr checked, and Lavinia nodded.
âI told her that it might give her a break, that I