Oliver had fallen awkwardly, and the armour hadnât been enough to protect his back: heâd ended up with an incomplete spinal injury. An injury that had left him stuck in a wheelchair and ruined his careerâbecause, as a surgeon, you needed strength as well as delicacy. And you also needed to be able to move round your patient. Stand up. Lean over. Oliver couldnât do that any more.
Hell, hell, hell. Heâd taken so much away from hisbrother. His career, his hobbies, his mobility, his joie de vivre âOliver was in too much pain, most of the time, to be full of laughter the way heâd used to be.
So giving up jousting had been the least Dominic could do. To make absolutely sure he never made a mistake like that again and someone else ended up badly hurt.
Pegasus whickered and shoved his head against Dominicâs.
âYeah. I know you miss it, too.â He made a fuss of his horse. âBut we just do steady hacking nowadays, OK? Itâs safer.â
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On Monday, Louisa sought out Dominic at lunchtime. âIâve got something for you.â
âFor me?â He looked at her in surprise.
She went over to her locker, took out a plastic wallet and handed it to him.
He looked at it; it was a sketch of a horse. And not just any horse. One he recognised. âThatâs Pegasus.â
âTy drew him for you yesterday. He just wanted to say thank you. For helping me sort out the lessons and for letting him make a fuss of your horse.â
âNo worries.â He stared at the picture. âNobodyâs ever drawn my horse for me before. And he did this from memory, from seeing Pegasus just once?â At Louisaâs nod, he blew out a breath. âWow. Heâs seriously good at this.â
âIâll tell him you liked it, shall I?â She looked pleased, too; clearly she was more used to people being put off by her sonâs directness.
âYou can tell him Iâm going to frame it,â Dominic said. âAnd tell him thank you.â
âIâm sorry about the way he grilled you. He didnât mean to trample on a sore spot. He doesnât pick upââ
âVisual cues, and he has tunnel vision,â Dominicfinished. âI know. Iâm used to Andy.â Andy had said the same thing, too: Why let the accident stop you jousting? Heâd gone further, saying that Dominic giving up jousting wouldnât fix Oliverâs back, so he was being completely self-indulgent and wallowing in it.
Maybe Andy and Tyler were right.
But Dominic still couldnât see past the guilt. Oliver would never joust again, or be a surgeon again. And that knowledge was hard enough to live with; harder still was the knowledge that his brother was in constant pain. Oliver had forgiven him, but Dominic still couldnât forgive himself.
âAre you all right?â Louisa asked, looking concerned.
âOld ghosts.â He shook himself. âIgnore me. Iâm fine.â
And that was the biggest fib of all.
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Dominic had gone back into his shell, Louisa thought over the next couple of days. He was always perfectly polite and professional if she was working with him in Resus, but she was aware of his reserve. She tried to put it out of her head; they were colleagues, so it shouldnât matter. As long as the patients were treated properly, it shouldnât matter that he was reserved with her.
And then, on Wednesday evening, her car refused to start after Tylerâs riding lesson. âOh, great.â
âWhy wonât your car work, Mum?â Ty asked.
âI donât know, love.â She sighed. âIâd better call the roadside rescue people.â
Sheâd been waiting for nearly a quarter of an hour when Bea came over. âAre you all right?â
âMy car wonât start. Iâve called the roadside rescue peopleâhopefully theyâll be here soon and theyâll able to fix