week. She was always like that when it was coming down to the wire, and he didnât blame her. Or yes, yes, he did blame her. And he resented it too. What was the big deal? It wasnât like she was playing ball or anything that took any skill, and why lock him out for that? She was like his over-achieving, straight-arrow parents, Type A personalities, early risers, joggers, letâs go out and beat the world. God, that was anal. But she had some body on her, as firm and flawless as the Illustrated Manâsâor Womanâs, actually. He thought about that and about the way her face softened when they were in bed together, and he stood at the pay phone seeing her in the hazy soft-focus glow of some made-for-TV movie. Maybe he shouldnât call. Maybe he should just ⦠surprise her.
She answered the door in an oversized sweatshirt and shorts, barefooted, and with the half-full pitcher from the blender in herhand. She looked surprised, all right, but not pleasantly surprised. In fact, she scowled at him and set the pitcher down on the bookcase before pulling back the door and ushering him in. He didnât even get the chance to tell her he loved her or to wish her luck before she started in on him. âWhat are you doing here?â she demanded. âYou know I canât see you tonight, of all nights. Whatâs with you? Are you drunk? Is that it?â
What could he say? He stared at the brown gloop in the pitcher for half a beat and then gave her his best simmering droopy-eyed smile and a shrug that radiated down from his shoulders to his hips. âI just wanted to see you. To wish you luck, you know?â He stepped forward to kiss her, but she dodged away from him, snatching up the pitcher full of gloop like a shield. âA kiss for luck?â he said.
She hesitated. He could see something go in and out of her eyes, the flicker of a worry, competitive anxiety, butterflies, and then she smiled and pecked him a kiss on the lips that tasted of soy and honey and whatever else was in that concoction she drank. âLuck,â she said, âbut no excitement.â
âAnd no sex,â he said, trying to make a joke of it. âI know.â
She laughed then, a high girlish tinkle of a laugh that broke the spell. âNo sex,â she said. âBut I was just going to watch a movie if you want to join meââ
He found one of the beers heâd left in the refrigerator for just such an emergency as this and settled in beside her on the couch to watch the movieâsome inspirational crap about a demi-cripple who wins the hurdle event in the Swedish Special Olympicsâbut he was hot, he couldnât help it, and his fingers kept wandering from her shoulder to her breast, from her waist to her inner thigh. At least she kissed him when she pushed him away. âTomorrow,â she promised, but it was only a promise, and they both knew it. Sheâd been so devastated after the Houston thing she wouldnât sleep with him for a week and a half, strung tight as a bow every time he touched her. The memory of it chewed at him, and he sipped his beer moodily. âBullshit,â he said.
âBullshit what?â
âBullshit youâll sleep with me tomorrow. Remember Houston? Remember Zinny Bauer?â
Her face changed suddenly and she flicked the remote angrily at the screen and the picture went blank. âI think you better go,â she said.
But he didnât want to go. She was his girlfriend, wasnât she? And what good did it do him if she kicked him out every time some chickenshit race came up? Didnât he matter to her, didnât he matter at all? âI donât want to go,â he said.
She stood, put her hands on her hips, and glared at him. âI have to go to bed now.â
He didnât budge. Didnât move a muscle. âThatâs what I mean,â he said, and his face was ugly, he couldnât help it. âI
David Drake, S.M. Stirling