After The Wedding by L Sandifer Read Free Book Online

me because of his interest. I took it for what it was worth and agreed.  I explained to him that he should not expect too much from me, because I was not searching for anyone when we met. I told him that Jessica was so insistent that I get back into socialization again, and I accepted, even though I told myself that it might not be the best decision right now.
     
    Robert and I have met exactly three times in one month, because I would not allow anymore than that.  I think I have surrounded myself in a protective shield.  It’s like “I’ve been burned once and don’t want to make it twice.” He is not pushing me in any way, which is very good for him; not taking the chance that he might never see me again.
     
    As time passes, I occasionally invite Robert to my place, and he does the same. He’s a very good cook and says the same about me, knowing that he’s only being graceful. Since we’ve dating, for over three months, the days seem to be passing so quickly. I was at Robert’s two nights ago and suddenly, while we were watching a movie, I leaned toward him and gave him a passionate kiss, he looked at me so intense, and his eyes were saying “I’ve been praying and waiting for this day.”  We’ve kissed before, but not like this, and he always initiated it. I realized that I was ready to have love back in my life again, and wanted Robert to make love passionate love to me, right then and there, and he did. It seemed as though we had been transported to another world, all by ourselves, as he whispered in my ear that he loved me almost as much as life itself.
     
    I could see tears in his eyes, as he said that he waited for me for such a long time, and could never visualize or think of losing me, and would know when I wanted his love. His body was very warm and his lips were soft as he continued to kiss and caress my body all over in such a way that I certainly knew he meant every word, from deep in his soul. He was so gentle, that it gave me a new definition to the meaning of love. It seemed as though I had grown in a way that was unexplainable and had a new perspective on loving someone. I can appreciate him for not showering me with gifts, or trying rush into a sexual affair, just to prove his manhood, but just allowing our relationship to cultivate and grow into something very warm, enjoyable and special. To me, Robert is a man among men and is not only manly on the exterior, but also in his heart, which is where it really counts.
     
    Robert has been a very patient man so far and is very aware of everything he says or does. He has never disrespected me in any way and has always been available to listen whenever needed, and I have also been here for him as well.  My days of waiting to be “plucked” are long gone. It’s only about love now, which is a very calming and rewarding experience. 
     
    He has finally asked me about Justin, and apologized if he was asking too soon, or whether he should have asked at all. I told him no, and there was no reason to apologize and didn’t mind at all, since time had played a big part in discussing Justin on another level and in a different frame of mind.
     
    I told him about the relationship and how it led to our marriage, and the ugly details that ended it.  He revealed that he could understand that it ended on a bad note, because he was aware of Justin’s background, and was so sorry for what he had done to me, and held me close, as if he never wanted to let go. We never discussed Justin again. That was two years ago. Robert and I feel so confident in our relationship that he has proposed to me, but I haven’t accepted yet; I need to give it a lot of thought. We are in a very good place in our relationship right now, and I just don’t want to have it shaken in any way, out of fear, because I don’t want it to end. He told me he understood and will be as patient as long as it takes, as he has been in the past.
     
    CHAPTER 21
    Back home to a new