their ship to track down the remaining shuttle.
“Ready?” Willa asked her.
She stared over at Willa. Behind her stood Darac. Across the room Rye leaned against the wall. Lastly, she turned her head to look at Thor. He was as far from her as he could get without being out of the room. Maybe she’d driven him away. That was for the best. Right?
God, she was so confused.
She didn’t want to be his mate. But when he wasn’t around, she kind of missed him.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
“Lucy?” Thor moved towards her, his gaze filled with concern. “Are you okay? You don’t have to do this.”
Yes, she did. No one knew why this last escape shuttle wasn’t emitting an emergency beacon, but Lucy had a really bad feeling. So it was up to her to find the missing warriors, including Koran, Mila and the Empress.
“I’m fine.”
“You do not look fine. You are pale and have dark marks under your eyes. Have you not been sleeping?” He reached up, as though to place his hand across his forehead. She leaned forward, her body moving of its own violation.
A fog of need surrounded her, like a drug seeping through her blood. She wanted his touch. Craved it.
At the last second, he snatched his hand back looking horrified.
Jeez, he didn’t have to look quite so relieved. Hurt, she took a few steps back.
It’s for the best, Lucy. Best that he keeps his distance. A relationship is the last thing you need or want. She didn’t know what she’d been thinking. She knew a simple touch, skin-to-skin, could start the mating process.
Not that she was his mate. But why take the risk?
“You should be in bed,” he said gruffly. “You look exhausted.”
“Wow, you have really got to work on your pick-up lines, Romeo,” Willa snarked, coming up and placing her arm around Lucy. “Telling someone they look like shit doesn’t usually end in slap and tickle. Well, unless the slap is to your face.” She turned to Lucy. “Want me to give him a smack around the head for you? You know, since you two are dancing around this whole touching thing. Ain’t really going to work if you ever want babies. Touching is a prerequisite.”
“We are not having babies. Or slap and tickle.” Lucy gave Willa a firm look. What was she playing at? She knew Lucy didn’t want to get involved with anyone. Least of all an overprotective, sexy warrior.
Willa threw her hands up. “Fine. Whatever. I should really leave the matchmaking to Zoey.”
“We are not a match. I am not his mate.” She glared at Thor, who stood there looking confused.
“I am. I am sorry you do not wish it, but I cannot change that. I can only give you time to come to overcome your fear of mating.”
What if she didn’t want time?
Now where did that stupid thought come from? She wanted all the time in the world. Forever. And she just needed to keep reminding herself of that. Cause the last thing she needed was to start dreaming about what life might be like with Thor.
How safe it might feel to let him protect her. To let herself feel something for him. Let herself trust someone again. When was the last time she’d truly felt safe?
“I don’t fear mating. I just never intend to mate. You’ll soon figure out I’m not your mate. Then you can go find some other woman to settle down with, raise eight children and live happy ever after.”
Me! Pick me!
No!
Jesus. She had some serious issues. She needed to seriously think about therapy. But who would want to crack her head open? Once she started to talk about her fears and insecurities she was pretty certain she’d never stop.
She turned to Willa. “I’m ready. You remember what to do?”
“Yep, don’t touch you. Don’t talk to you and if your eyes go a weird color don’t freak out.”
“Ahh, yeah, that’s pretty much it. Here goes.”
She grabbed Mila’s bracelet and opened up the barriers that she kept up to protect herself. She braced herself as the room spun. The sickening feeling stopped suddenly