All That I Need (Secret Desires) by Ava Catori Read Free Book Online Page A

hallway and let his fingers satisfy me in ways I’d forgotten about. There was urgency, and pressed to the wall in the hallway, Austin took me roughly, but passionately. As I came on his hand, he ripped his own jeans off, and something I hadn’t seen in ages pressed into me. His raging hard on was full of fire and needed release.
    Awkwardly we shifted and moved, and as he entered me for the first time in what felt like forever, I cried. Pumping up, thrusting, pushing deep, I cried into his shoulder as he found his peak. As the orgasm ripped through him, I felt the sticky sweetness between my legs. We had so much pent up aggression, and standing there in the hallway between our orgasms and my tears, we let it all go, accepting the moment of loving.
    We stood panting, and then stopped to look at one another. In the oddest moment we burst out laughing, realizing that we’d just had sex, something we hadn’t had in ages. His body cooperated, our lust was unleashed, and in an exhilarating moment we found our connection. It was real, and the feelings bouncing between us were as well.
    Reaching for his pants, he pulled them up, as I readjusted myself. We said nothing, and then went and collapsed on the sofa next to each other. Leaning into him, his arms wrapping around me, I felt whole for the first time in ages.
    “I may need to do that again,” I smiled. There was a joy in me I hadn’t felt in ages.
    “I want to do that again, if I can,” he warned. “I want you Kate, more than you know, but it’s been difficult. It’s emotional and embarrassing to not be able to get hard – it makes you feel like less of a man.” His voice was soft, coaxing me to understand things from his side of things.
    “I understand,” I started, compassion welling up in me.
    “You don’t, you can’t, because you’re not a man. I’m not saying that to be harsh, but it’s tied to who I am, part of being a man. Please just know that you’re the only one I want – but I need to be able to satisfy you. That’s important to me.”
    I nuzzled into my husband, uncertain if we’d be able to have sex again, but knowing that he truly still loved me. Desire wasn’t the issue – medication side effects were, and if I could keep that nugget of truth in my brain, we might be okay. I couldn’t promise that I wouldn’t turn it back in on myself, and feel that it was me, but I was going to try, that’s for damn sure.
    Climbing the stairs together, there was anticipation, wondering if we’d be able to pull it off again. I wanted him, needed him, but I’d have to take this at Austin’s pace. His body would have it no other way.
    Undressing, I got into bed and watched my husband as he finished up in the bathroom, brushing his teeth. “Austin,” I started.
    “Yeah?”
    “I love you, babe.”
    “I love you too.”
    A small smile escaped my lips, as I saw him walking over. He was semi-erect, with a promise of more. It was going to be a good night indeed. I was more than ready to share another moment of loving with my husband, it was long overdue.
    As he took me in his arms, I knew everything would be okay.
    Chapter Eight
    Austin’s hands were warm and tender, offering a loving touch I hadn’t felt in too long. His kisses were sweet, and each caress told me all that I needed to know. Everything that had been harnessed was about to be unleashed.
    It didn’t take long for my body to respond to his touches as a rush ran through me, sending tingling sensations everywhere. What happened earlier boosted his confidence, and this time he was willing to slow down and make love to me, something I missed desperately.
    Lying on his side, Austin traced the outline of my lips with his finger, and smiled at me. “You’re such a beautiful woman,” he whispered. “You’re all I’ve ever wanted.”
    I loved when he touched me. I felt connected to him the most during these intimate encounters. I’d missed him so much, and to have him beside me, holding