me. Why was I getting involved in another murder case? Was my ego so big and my common sense so puny that I couldnât see where this could lead? I dusted off the answer I would have given anyone who asked me that question two years ago. âI guess because itâs a mitzvah. Someone has to defend people who havenât got the wherewithal to defend themselves. And Iâm pretty good at it.â
âPssh,â my mother exhaled. She wasnât buying.
Now I had to defend myself. âYou can say that all you like, but thatâs the truth. This guy, the defendant? He reminds me of Uncle Louie. You know, wiry and smart. But a sucker for a pretty face.â
âIf heâs so smart â¦â she started, before amending it to, âso itâs another murder case.â
âHeâs innocent. Iâm sure of it.â I felt suddenly deflated. âPretty sure of it.â
She didnât say anything. I knew sheâd be sitting there stone-faced. Silence had always been her greatest weapon. âAnyway â anyway, I wanted you to hear it from me. Thereâs a little article
about it in the morning paper.â My mother groaned. âPage fourteen if you want to read about it.â
âPlease, please, pleaseâ â my mother sounded exhausted â âplease, be careful.â
I put down the phone feeling spent. I sat there breathing in and out, counting the breaths, and trying to collect enough energy to return the beep. I punched in the number. After one ring, an answering machine picked up. âYouâve reached Annie Squires ⦠.â
âAnnie? Peter Zak, returning your call ⦠.â
There was a click, âHey, Peter.â
âHey, yourself.â
âIâm sitting here looking at a pile of Sylvia Jacksonâs medical records and police interviews with your name on them.â I didnât say anything. I wasnât so sure that I was ready to start reading about bullet fragments lodged in the cerebral cortex. âI can drop them off later today.â
I didnât say anything. Bubkes, I heard my motherâs voice.
âOr do you want me to drop them off at your house? Iâll be heading out that way late this afternoon. Either way ââ
âRight. You know where I am,â I muttered. Of course she did. The three of us had powwowed over cases in my living room many times. âRight. Sure, fine,â I added, to no one in particular.
Annie ignored the awkwardness. âI donât know about you, but I was stunned when the judge agreed to let us evaluate Sylvia Jackson. I think the D.A. was completely blindsided when Chip made the request. He blinked and the judge ruled in our favor. Of course, the downside is that Shermanâs been wounded where he hurts most â in his ego. This is not a guy who likes to be beaten.â
I wasnât looking forward to meeting Monty Sherman. Generally speaking, D.A.âs are a prickly breed to begin with, and this one was already aggravated.
âOur office is setting up the dates and times for you to see her. Can you call in and tell them your schedule?â
âWill do,â I said automatically.
âSo Iâll drop off the reports at your house?â
It was a good thing Iâd called my mother. With her built-in sonar for detecting movement around the house, she wasnât likely to miss Annie Squires dropping off trial-related documents.
âYou okay with this, Peter?â Annie asked. âYou donât sound like yourself.â
Of course I didnât sound like myself. Should I suddenly start to sound like my old self, now that I was doing something that Iâd done regularly before everything fell apart? If Iâd been my own patient, Iâd have observed that it was a first step.
I hung up the phone and headed to the other end of the unit to visit Mr. OâFlanagan. I found myself wondering whether those reports
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