fountain that consists of three large statues, nude figures reclining and facing away from the center. Each one has an animal behind its head that spouts arcing water into the shallow pool. Even though the air carries an autumn coolness, a few kids splash around in the water.
âI think itâs important for you to contact your birth mother,â her mom says, picking up their conversation.
Mariâs face hardens. âWhy?â
Her mom hesitates. Looks up at the sky. âI have cancer.â
She looks at her mom. She feels like sheâs fallen into the bottom of a deep well. âWhat?â
âI have cancer.â
âNo.â
âYes.â
Mari turns away. She gazes into the fountainâs spraying water. Everything seems louder. The fountain. The traffic. The wind in the leaves. But nothing seems real.
âI started crying back there, in the heart,â her mom says, âbecause I thought about how I might never get to see you have children.â
âOr cats,â Mari adds quietly.
Her mom laughs. âI always thought you were more of a dog person.â
âAre you going to die?â Mari asks after a moment.
She shrugs. âI hope not.â
âWhat kind is it?â
She presses her hand across her left breast. âStage three. The doctor said that I have about a seventy percent chance of survival with treatmentâso thatâs good news. It could be a lot worse.â
Mari nods, but her mind flashes to all the times sheâs rolled a one or a two with a six-sided die. âWhat kind of treatment?â
âChemotherapy . . . and a mastectomy, most likely.â
Mari tries to imagine the missing breast beneath her momâs shirt. âWhen did you find out?â she asks.
âThe biopsy was last Friday.â
Mari realizes that was when she drove her mom to the doctorâs office. She remembers the muted talk show. The flatulent old man. The artificial plant that had seemed so real. She had thought nothing of it at the time, figuring it was just a routine visit.
âThey called with the results the other day,â her mom adds.
âDoes dad know? Do Eric and Andrew?â
âDad does. We wanted to tell you first since youâre the oldest. Your father and I are going to talk to them tonight.â
The world darkens as a large cloud blocks the sun. Mari looks up and notes that it will probably be a while before the sun reemerges. It might even rain.
Mari wants to cry but all she feels is anger. âI hate that this has to happen to you. Youâre like the nicest person in the world. Why couldnât this happen to some child molester or rapist or politician instead? Why does it have to be you?â
Her mom takes a slow, deep breath. âIâve been asking myself that question a lot lately.â
âAnd?â
âAnd thereâs no answer. Itâs out of my control. It just did. It happened.â
âThatâs reassuring.â
âThe universe isnât here to reassure us,â her mom says.
âThen why is it here?â
âThatâs another question Iâve been asking myself a lot lately.â
âAnd?â Mari asks.
âIâll let you know when I figure it out.â
Mari closes her eyes and leans forward, resting her elbows on her knees. The wind picks up, rustling the leaves and spraying the fountainâs spouting water in a mist that carries to Mari and her mom. They do not notice.
âSo this is why you told me about the contact information before my birthday?â
Her mom nods. âI want to be there for you. To help you work through things.â
âDo you really think youâll die before then?â
âProbably not. But you never know. I donât want to take any chances anymore.â
Mari is silent for a while, and then says, âI doubt sheâll want to meet me.â
âShe does.â
âHow do you