isnât that bad.â Mrs. Wahdati toyed with her necklace absently. She was looking out the window, a heaviness set on her features. âI like it best here at the end of spring, after the rains. The air so clean. That first burst of summer. The way the sun hits the mountains.â She smiled wanly. âIt will be good to have a child around the house. A little noise, for a change. A little life.â
Abdullah looked at her and sensed something alarming in the woman, beneath the makeup and the perfume and the appeals for sympathy, something deeply splintered. He found himself thinking of the smoke of Parwanaâs cooking, the kitchen shelf cluttered with her jars and mismatched plates and smudged pots. He missed the mattress he shared with Pari, though it was dirty, and the jumbles of springs forever threatened to poke through. He missed all of it. He had never before ached so badly for home.
Mrs. Wahdati slumped back into the seat with a sigh, hugging her purse the way a pregnant woman might hold her swollen belly.
Uncle Nabi pulled up to a crowded curbside. Across the street, next to a mosque with soaring minarets, was the bazaar, composed of congested labyrinths of both vaulted and open alleyways. They strolled through corridors of stalls that sold leather coats, rings with colored jewels and stones, spices of all kinds, Uncle Nabi in the rear, Mrs. Wahdati and the two of them in the lead. Now that they were outside, Mrs. Wahdati wore a pair of dark glasses that made her face look oddly catlike.
Hagglersâ calls echoed everywhere. Music blared from virtually every stall. They walked past open-fronted shops selling books, radios, lamps, and silver-colored cooking pots. Abdullah saw a pair of soldiers in dusty boots and dark brown greatcoats, sharing a cigarette, eyeing everyone with bored indifference.
They stopped by a shoe stall. Mrs. Wahdati rummaged through the rows of shoes displayed on boxes. Uncle Nabi wandered over to the next stall, hands clasped behind his back, and gave a down-the-nose look at some old coins.
âHow about these?â Mrs. Wahdati said to Pari. She was holding up a new pair of yellow sneakers.
âTheyâre so pretty,â Pari said, looking at the shoes with disbelief.
âLetâs try them on.â
Mrs. Wahdati helped Pari slip on the shoes, working the strap and buckle for her. She peered up at Abdullah over her glasses. âYou could use a pair too, I think. I canât believe you walked all the way from your village in those sandals.â
Abdullah shook his head and looked away. Down the alleyway, an old man with a ragged beard and two clubfeet begged passersby.
âLook, Abollah!â Pari raised one foot, then the other. She stomped her feet on the ground, hopped. Mrs. Wahdati called Uncle Nabi over and told him to walk Pari down the alley, see how the shoes felt. Uncle Nabi took Pariâs hand and led her up the lane.
Mrs. Wahdati looked down at Abdullah.
âYou think Iâm a bad person,â she said. âThe way I spoke earlier.â
Abdullah watched Pari and Uncle Nabi pass by the old beggar with the clubfeet. The old man said something to Pari, Pari turnedher face up to Uncle Nabi and said something, and Uncle Nabi tossed the old man a coin.
Abdullah began to cry soundlessly.
âOh, you sweet boy,â Mrs. Wahdati said, startled. âYou poor darling.â She fetched a handkerchief from her purse and offered it.
Abdullah swiped it away. âPlease donât do it,â he said, his voice cracking.
She hunkered down beside him now, her glasses pushed up on her hair. There was wetness in her eyes too, and when she dabbed at them with the handkerchief, it came away with black smudges. âI donât blame you if you hate me. Itâs your right. Butâand I donât expect you to understand, not nowâthis is for the best. It really is, Abdullah. Itâs for the best. One day youâll