were always clever, Brent. So adorable. I hope for your clientâs sake youâre packing more than cuteness these days.â
I bend my head, leaning down, just inches away from her shiny lips. âI havenât had any complaints about what Iâm packing so far.â
She stares at my mouth for one beat too long.
Then she blinks, shaking off her stare. âGood. Then Iâll see you in court, Counselor.â
âBet your sweet ass you will.â
Kennedy brushes past me and struts awayâleaving me no choice but to watch her go.
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We donât talk again after that. But I discreetly keep tabs on Kennedy the rest of the afternoonâwhere sheâs standing, who she chats with. Tension prickles my skin if sheâs out of my field of vision for too long, but when I find her again, relief detonates in my chest. For a long timeâyearsâI wondered what she was doing, where she was, wanted so fucking badly to see herâthe way an alcoholic craves just one more taste.
It wasnât easy, but eventually I went cold turkey, gave up on her completelyâbecause wondering and wanting are lost causes. So, as good as it is to be able to watch her now, Iâm not thrilled to fall off the wagon just yet.
âI donât want to go, Mommy!â Jonathon cries, yanking at his motherâs hand, trying to dig his heels into the grass.
Because Katherine just told her kids itâs getting lateâtime to head home.
Annie adds her own plaintive wail. âI wants da fireworks.â
I step up beside my cousin as her children join forces against her.
âWeâre gonna miss the fireworks, Mommy!â Jonathon yells.
âSettle down, little man.â I tell him. âThere arenât any fireworks tonight. We only have them on New Yearâs Eve.â
Every year, my parents go all out throwing a huge, formal New Yearâs Eve partyâthey have since before I was born. Thereâs tuxedos and gowns, dancing, fountains of champagne . . . and fireworks at midnight that light up the sky and bathe the Potomac River in bright, sparkling color. Young kids in the family, like Jonathon and Annie, arenât allowed to stay at the party all night. Theyâre sent to bed in one of the dozens of upstairs rooms before midnight. But Jonathon and Annie obviously know about the fireworks. They probably slip out of bed and watch the show through the window. Thatâs what I did every year, when I was their age.
OnlyâI didnât watch from the window. And I didnât watch alone.
âIâll go first,â I tell Kennedy at the base of the ladder. âSo I can open the hatch.â
Even though weâre both nine, sheâs a lot smaller than I am. This is the first time weâve gone up to the roofâand Iâm the boy, so I should definitely go first. There could be rabid birds up there, or bats.
Weâre in the big attic, where trunks, old books, paintings, and plastic-wrapped dresses get stored. Itâs dark and dusty, with shadowed corners that look like theyâre moving if you stare too long. Kennedy loves it up here.
âCome on, itâs going to start soon,â I tell her. âWeâll come back here tomorrow.â
Her eyes are still wide behind her thick-lensed, yellow-framed glasses as she gazes around the room, but she nods. âAll right.â
I head up the ladder and push open the access door in the ceiling. Then I climb through and reach down my hand. Kennedy grabs it as she climbs through and then weâre standing on the flat peak of my house. Sometimes Kennedy calls it a castleâMason Castleâbecause of the ballroom. Her house is just as big. They donât have a ballroom, but they have a home movie theater, which is a thousand times cooler.
The icy wind cuts right through my robeâitâs freezing this year, cold enough to see every breath. The