struggling to inch my way past him. He takes a side step. Weâre caught in this face-to-face, trying-to-get-around-each-other thing. It feels as though someone is trying to beat her way out of my chest, and if Russ stands any closer, sheâll clobber him. The smell of his woodsy cologne makes me want to set up camp. And I canât stop staring at those rippling biceps. Boy, he must work with some pretty heavy teeth.
âYou leaving?â His words are so close, his fresh breath grazes my face. Somebody gulps out loud, and I think itâs me.
âI havenât seen Mom and Dad yet.â If only I had some gum. Itâs one of those Dentyne moments where youâre caught off guard. Speaking of guard, I sure hope my deodorant is working. A facial blotter would come in handy right about now too. âJust got here a little while ago and thought Iâd better head over and see them.â
A flicker of disappointment flashes in his eyes and my heart somer-saults.
âItâs been thirty years, and I only get an âIâm afraid my geometry days are overâ?â Though the sparkle is still in place, his eyes droop.
I just stand there smiling with teeth that are three months overdue for their semiannual cleaning. My feet have deserted me, Iâm sure of it. I want to check, but if I look down, my head will thump against his chest, and we could be wedged between the door frame for life. I con-sider it, but only for a moment.
âWill you be back soon?â he asks, with a definite âI hope soâ look on his face.
âProbably not tonight,â I say apologetically. My heart is drumming so hard, I could give Ringo a run for his money.
We stand there another second or two, though it seems a millennium. âUm, well, I guess Iâd better go.â I edge past him.
âMaybe Iâll see you around. I live in Tappery now, you know.â
âYeah, I heard that,â I call over my shoulder. âSee ya.â I wave, then dash to my car. By the time I settle into my leather seat, my mutinous heart is beating ten times its normal rhythm. It has to be the thyroid meds. Yeah, thatâs it. Iâll have it checked when I get home.
My fingers fumble with the keys, then I stick them into the ignition and, with a flick of the wrist, start the engine.
âDeep breaths, Char. Deep breaths.â Breathe in and out, slow breaths. Inhale, one, two, three, four; exhale, one, two, threeâ
A tap sounds at my window, and I scream. Once my heart kicks back into its natural beat, I reach for the button and roll down the glass.
âSorry, didnât mean to scare you. Just wanted to make sure you were okay.â Russâs face is too close again. For a fleeting moment Iâm tempted to grab him by the neck and drag him into the car, caveman-style.
âIâm fine,â I say, sounding like Snow White sucking helium.
âAll right. You were just out here awhile, and I wondered if some-thing was wrong.â
âOh, uh, well, I was, uh, looking for something in my purse.â That was the best line I could come up with? My entire vocabulary leaves me with one glance into his eyes.
He hesitates. âSure you wonât stay?â
My brain screams yes, but Momâs stern face comes into my mind, and I hear myself say, âIâm sorry, I had better not stay tonight.â
He nods. âSee you later.â He gives the top of the car a quick pat.
I smile, roll up my window, and peel rubber, no doubt flipping pebbles and twigs upon Russâs pants legs as I go. Who am I kidding? I could have kicked up a boulder the way I peeled out.
My emotions are out of control. Iâve probably been watching too many romantic movies lately. Itâs unnerving, thatâs what it is. The last thing I need is a romantic complication in my life. Okay, so heâs handsome. Those kind of guys are a dime a dozen. I married one, and look where that got