Bella (A Sagatori Family Saga a Mafia Romance Book 3) by Kimberly Blalock Read Free Book Online Page A

suggested we marry for real I had hopes things would change, but doubt washed over me every single day. I shrugged into the beautiful white silk gown. “I don’t know, Alessandra. I’m so confused.” I hated to admit that, but I knew that I could trust her. She was the only person that felt like a mother to me, and I treasured her. “I would like to ask you something.”
    “Of course.” She adjusted the strap of my dress.
    “Would you consider giving me away?”
    A tear flowed from her gray eye. She didn’t seem to be crying, but the tear was a giveaway.
    “I’d be honored.” A smile lifted her cheeks.
    “I imagine if my mother was here, she’d be like you.” I leaned forward hugging her. “Thank you for everything that you do for me. I cherish you.”
    “As I cherish you, my dear child.” I squeezed her harder. “Ah, it’s time.”
    We left the small room of the church and entered the corridor. Tony stood close by waiting for the right moment to open the chapel door.
    The organ began playing the wedding marc, 1 and Tony was told to open the door. I stepped over the threshold and onto the white floor below my feet. Jax stood tall at the altar. The church was filled with strangers, most of them famiglia from out of town. They never missed a wedding.
    Weddings were a big deal in the family. As I entered the church everyone stood for me. I gripped the rose bouquet in my hand for support and focused on Jax at the end of the aisle wondering if this was the right choice. Yes, we were already married, yes we lived a somewhat normal married life, but would love ever be a factor in our marriage?
    The march stopped as I approached the altar. Jax stepped down taking my hand in his as he led me up the stairs. The priest stood ready to marry us only, this time, I felt confident there wouldn’t be another uninvited guest like there had been the last time. And even if there were, there were probably enough people carrying weapons in the church to take out a small town, and that gave me comfort.
    The priest began the wedding and everyone sat. I was shaking, only I had no idea why. I suppose I thought of the other wedding as a joke. I knew that if I did go through with this, I’d never be able to walk away. I drew in a deep breath asking myself if I wanted to run or stay, and un til Jax spoke I wasn’t sure which I’d do. -
    “Isabella, we were brought together by chance on the most of unexpected nights, but you…” he cleared his throat, “…you took my life in a direction I never thought would be possible for me again. Until I met you, I had only ever loved one woman. I will honor you for all the days of your life. Anything you want or need is yours.”
    He’d said he loved me even if he hadn’t actually said, I love you, Bella. He was saying he loved me in his own way. And I knew right then and there I wasn’t going to run because I loved Jax, as well.

Jax
    I paced the small room, waiting while my heart pounded in my chest. Sweat beaded up on my brows and I pulled at my collar needing to breathe. The small room and the idea that I’d be marrying Bella in twenty minutes was choking the hell out of me. Not because I didn’t want to marry her but because I did. I wanted things with Bella I’d never wanted with anyone else ever. And the idea of her betraying me at some point was too much. I couldn’t control myself if she betrayed me, but I didn’t see it as if she’d betray me,  but rather when she’d betray me. It was inevitable. She was too good for me, I knew that.
    She’d agreed to marry me today, 1 and I’d agreed to try to give of myself. I could marry Bella all day long, that wasn’t the issue. It was allowing myself to be vulnerable with her. I’d never been vulnerable except with Rebecca, and she ended up in Casconi’s bed.
    “You okay, boss?” Mickie’s hand landed on my shoulder.
    I turned with narrowed eyes. 1 “Do I look like something's wrong?”
    “No, boss, just checkin’.”