turned out to be false. âThatâs absolutely fine. Iâll be around the corner by the pay telephones. And Iâll be watching.â
Now sheâll ask me if I had a little too much to drink. Because I probably sound that way.
But Andrea only wanted to know if she would be paying with cash or credit.
âAmerican Express. I should be in your computer.â
âYes, maâam, you are. Thank you for calling Royal Limousine, where every customer is treated like royalty.â Andrea clicked off before Tess could say she was very welcome.
She started to hang up the phone, and then a manâ him, itâs him âran around the corner of the store and right at her. This time there wasno chance of screaming; she was paralyzed with terror.
It was one of the teenage boys. He went past without looking at her and hooked a left into the Menâs. The door slammed. A moment later she heard the enthusiastic, horselike sound of a young man voiding an awesomely healthy bladder.
Tess went down the side of the building and around back. There she stood beside a reeking Dumpster ( no, she thought, Iâm not standing, Iâm lurking ), waiting for the young man to finish and be gone. When he was, she walked back to the pay phones to watch the road. In spite of all the places where she hurt, her belly was rumbling with hunger. She had missed her dinner, had been too busy being raped and almost killed to eat. She would have been glad to have any of the snacks they sold in places like thisâeven some of those little nasty peanut butter crackers, so weirdly yellow, would have been a treatâbut she had no money. Even if she had, she wouldnât have gone in there. She knew what kind of lights they had in roadside convenience stores like Gas & Dash, those bright and heartless fluorescents that made even healthy people look like they were suffering from pancreatic cancer. The clerk behind the counter would look at her bruised cheeks and forehead, her broken nose and her swollen lips, and he or she might not say anything, but Tess would see the widening of the eyes. And maybe a quickly suppressed twitch of the lips. Because, face it, people could think a beat-up woman was funny. Especially on a Fridaynight. Who tuned up on you, lady, and what did you do to deserve it? Wouldnât you come across after some guy spent his overtime on you?
That reminded her of an old joke sheâd heard somewhere: Why are there three hundred thousand battered women each year in America? Because they wonât . . . fuckin . . . listen.
âNever mind,â she whispered. âIâll have something to eat when I get home. Tuna salad, maybe.â
It sounded good, but part of her was convinced that her days of eating tuna saladâor nasty yellow convenience-store peanut butter crackers, for that matterâwere all over. The idea of a limo pulling up and driving her out of this nightmare was an insane mirage.
From somewhere to her left, Tess could hear cars rushing by on I-84âthe road she would have taken if she hadnât been so pleased to be offered a shorter way home. Over there on the turnpike, people who had never been raped or stuffed in pipes were going places. Tess thought the sound of their blithe travel was the loneliest sheâd ever heard.
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The limo came. It was a Lincoln Town Car. The man behind the wheel got out and looked around. Tess observed him closely from the corner of the store. He was wearing a dark suit. He was a small, bespectacled fellow who didnât look like arapist . . . but of course not all giants were rapists and not all rapists were giants. She had to trust him, though. If she were to get home and feed Fritzy, there was no other option. So she dropped her filthy makeshift stole beside the pay phone that actually worked and walked slowly and steadily toward the car. The light shining through the store windows seemed blindingly bright after the shadows at