were too strong and that would give him even more reason to send her away. T hen , there would be no doubt in his mind that Dezarãe would trigger her Awakening . It was bad enough that she lost her other sisters, but Dezarãe also?
Samanthŕa would rather die at this point . But what choice did she have if Dĩas decided to take her sister away? He controlled their bloodlines and had even more power than she did as High Priestess. And as High Priestess, s he took a blood oath to serve her father and his throne, just as s he swore to serve both her family and the rest of the bloodlines . And after all . . . High Priestess or not . . . she was still just a Vii. If only she had been born a warrior . . .
Males had no need of A wakening. They were what they were destined to be at birth. Once they entered manhood, they and their beasts became powerful warriors. They fed without killing, if they kept to the old ways. If not , then they were evil and not someone of the family. She , however, was a Vii and did not have need to feed as a Strygĩ did. A Vii was a female who was inexperrectus - one who had not yet A wakened.
If she were allowed to Awaken, she would be able to merge with her beast and the element she shared soul with. She would be able to mist longer distances and manipulate the energies for much longer periods of time. She would be an immortal wh o lived for an eternity , not for just six hundred or so years. Without her A wakening , she would need to be bathed in the eternal fires of the Great Goddess, undergo ritual s, to become rejuvenated. Those fires would keep her young if she ever had need of them.
That’s what Vampyŕe meant, o ne who was born from and fed from the Goddess’ fire or pyre . As Vii, the simple flame of a candle could satisfy her , but as a fully-fledged Strygĩ, she would need the fire of essence--blood-- a force of life to do so.
She felt him move behind her . . . unco mfortably close . Sh e felt by instincts, his hand barely graze the ti ps of her long hair.
His voice beca me soft. “You have become rebellious . . . ever since I allowed you to return to your own chamber and leave mine . "
"I . . . I told you . . . I wanted to be around my own things." She bit back a shiver, a cold disgusted chill caused by what he spoke of. She threw a door shut on the memories of his words. She never wanted to relive such things again.
"And still, you make me regret that decision."
W hy was he bringing that up now? Was he starving for even more power over her? Did he now want to suffocate her? Was he aggravated that he had to go over this . . . a subject which infuriated him completely . . . her Awakening ? Probably, she imagined, but at this point, she didn’t care.
Frozen, s he kept her back towards him. Th e pit of her stomach felt weak as he lifted a piece of the hair he nearly grazed.
"Perhaps I need to reverse my decision and you should return--"
“It i s not your decision. " She spoke of her previous tantrums concerning the rights of having her own chamber, her own place of privacy, of safety. And, she cut off any chance of them sharing a moment . . . or rather, him thinking he might. A Vii needed to be fierce, especially when her bloodlines were becoming so corrupt. " If you had not tried to lay claim over me, I--”
“It was for your own good.” His voice became harsh and cold. "And not as repulsive as you may think. "
"It is repulsive when you are not my Awakener." She hissed low.
"No . . . but as High Priestess, you should know k eeping the bloodline