doesnât look like you,â said Jane simply. âAnybody could get a picture like this, somewhere.â
They looked at her for a long moment.
âAny more pictures, Mrs. Bentley?â asked Alice. âOf you, later? You got a picture of you at fifteen, and one at twenty, and one at forty and fifty?â
The girls chortled.
âI donât have to show you anything!â said Mrs. Bentley.
âThen we donât have to believe you,â replied Jane.
âBut this picture proves I was young!â
âThatâs some other little girl, like us. You borrowed it.â
âI was married!â
âWhereâs Mr. Bentley?â
âHeâs been gone a long time. If he were here, heâd tell you how young and pretty I was when I was twenty-two.â
âBut heâs not here and he canât tell, so what does that prove?â
âI have a marriage certificate.â
âYou could have borrowed that, too. Only way Iâll believe you were ever youngââJane shut her eyes to emphasize how sure she was of herselfââis if you have someone say they saw you when you were ten.â
âThousands of people saw me but theyâre dead, you little foolâor ill, in other towns. I donât know a soul here, just moved here a few years ago, so no one saw me young.â
âWell, there you are !â Jane blinked at her companions. âNobody saw her!â
âListen!â Mrs. Bentley seized the girlâs wrist. âYou must take these things on faith. Someday youâll be as old as I. People will say the same. âOh, no,â theyâll say, âthose vultures were never hummingbirds, those owls were never orioles, those parrots were never bluebirds!â One day youâll be like me!â
âNo, we wonât!â said the girls. âWill we?â they asked one another.
âWait and see!â said Mrs. Bentley.
And to herself she thought, Oh, God, children are children, old women are old women, and nothing in between. They canât imagine a change they canât see.
âYour mother,â she said to Jane. âHavenât you noticed, over the years, the change?â
âNo,â said Jane. âSheâs always the same.â
And that was true. You lived with people every day and they never altered a degree. It was only when people had been off on a long trip, for years, that they shocked you. And she felt like a woman who has been on a roaring black train for seventy-two years, landing at last upon the rail platform and everyone crying: âHelen Bentley, is that you? â
âI guess we better go home,â said Jane. âThanks for the ring. It just fits me.â
âThanks for the comb. Itâs fine.â
âThanks for the picture of the little girl.â
âCome backâyou canât have those!â Mrs. Bentley shouted as they raced down the steps. âTheyâre mine! â
âDonât!â said Tom, following the girls. âGive them back!â
âNo, she stole them! They belonged to some other little girl. She stole them. Thanks!â cried Alice.
So no matter how she called after them, the girls were gone, like moths through darkness.
âIâm sorry,â said Tom, on the lawn, looking up at Mrs. Bentley. He went away.
They took my ring and my comb and my picture, thought Mrs. Bentley, trembling there on the steps. Oh, Iâm empty, empty; itâs part of my life.
She lay awake for many hours into the night, among her trunks and trinkets. She glanced over at the neat stacks of materials and toys and opera plumes and said, aloud, âDoes it really belong to me?â
Or was it the elaborate trick of an old lady convincing herself that she had a past? After all, once a time was over, it was done. You were always in the present. She may have been a girl once, but was not now. Her childhood was gone and