Petrovnaâs desk. From the back row, the classroom looks different. Iâm here with other unreliables and I can see much better from here. Now I can see the whole room.
âAfter the song, you will hear a drumroll. This is when our sacred banner will be brought in,â says Nina Petrovna, and glances at me. âWhoâs going to carry the banner? Who truly deserves it? Who loves Stalin most of all?â
Sheâs not looking at me now, but I can tell sheâs enjoying choosing someone else to carry the banner. Someone other than me.
I look up at our class photograph. Finkelsteinâs
face is covered in black ink, and Vovkaâs, too. Mineâs next. Any minute, the State Security guards will burst through the door and drag me off to Lubyanka to confess to my crimes. I will never be a Pioneer. Do I still have to live by the rules of the Pioneers?
I get up, walk to where the banner is leaning against the wall, take it, and climb up on Nina Petrovnaâs desk. I wave the sacred cloth over my head and, marching in place, sing âA Bright Future Is Open to Usâ in a loud voice. It feels good.
âZaichik!â shrieks Nina Petrovna. âDown, Zaichik! Down!â
She tries to grab my foot, but Iâm faster. I hop from desk to desk, shouting the song and waving the banner. Nina Petrovna chases after me. Everyoneâs laughing. Then I miss a desktop and go down, and right away sheâs on top of me, screeching and wrestling the banner out of my hands.
When the State Security guards stomp in, Iâm on my back, head toward the door, so I see their
boots upside down. One of the guards is holding Vovka by the collar. âThat scum there,â Vovka says, pointing in our direction. Then Vovka nods toward Nina Petrovnaâs desk.
A guard steps over us, clomps to the desk, pulls the drawer out, and dumps it on the floor. Everyoneâs quiet, watching him. He sorts through the stuff from the drawer with the tip of his boot, then bends down and picks something up.
Itâs Stalinâs plaster nose.
He shoves it into Nina Petrovnaâs face, which drains to white. âNo. No. Itâs not mine. I couldnât ⦠Iâm a Communist ⦠. Itâs a mistake.â
I look up at Vovka. He knows Iâm looking at him, but he doesnât turn his head. I see heâs grinning. So, he didnât turn me in after all. He must have stayed behind in the classroom and hidden the nose in Nina Petrovnaâs desk during Sergei Ivanychâs speech in the cafeteria.
The guards twist Nina Petrovnaâs arms and drag her to the door. She screams and kicks and tries to hold on to nearby kids. They duck under her arms, laughing.
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I DIDNâT KNOW our principal, Sergei Ivanych, is so short. Heâs always either behind his desk or behind the podium, delivering speeches. There must be something hidden under his seat to lift him up, because now, as he walks me down the hall, I see that he is no taller than a kid.
âNina Petrovna didnât break off the nose,â I say.
âThat woman is no longer my responsibility,â he says, and keeps walking.
âFinkelstein didnât break it, either.â
âFinkelstein confessed in front of everybody.â
âHe did it to get into Lubyanka to look for his parents.â
âHis parents were executed,â he says, and shrugs. âSomebody should have told him.â
Iâm getting the shivers again. My teeth start to chatter. Poor Four-Eyes. His aunt told him his parents had been shot; why didnât he believe her? Now heâs gone to prison for nothing.
âNo stopping. Letâs go, Zaichik,â says Sergei Ivanych, and he grabs my arm and pulls me down the stairs to the basement. Heâs short but strong.
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SERGEI IVANYCH knocks softly on the storage room door: three quick knocks, a pause, three quick ones again. He listens for a moment, takes a key out of his
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