and let him know that his son, like me, was in danger.
I was amazed at how these two immortals were willing to risk everything for us, knowing full well that they didn’t have a chance. It wasn’t fair.
I was just about to get up and make my entrance when I heard another voice. It was Samuel.
“ I agree with Alaine, but only partly. Emma should not take this journey. It’s way too much of a risk for her, and for the rest of us. If anything happens to her, we will not have hope for the future. But I will be going. I’ll not allow Danyel and Kade go on this quest alone. They have both already risked their lives to save my daughter, and it’s not fair that they be abandoned to this perilous journey alone, which we all know will end in vain.”
Samuel. My father.
He was so brave and compassionate, and I didn’t see how he could be one of the Fallen. His heart was too big and too good.
The blood in my veins continued to simmer . I knew they were looking out for me, but it was completely unfair that they didn’t even give me a say in the matter. And the fact that they kicked me out of the room to make this decision, made it even worse! Yes, I was seventeen and still human, but I wasn’t stupid and going to let them risk their lives for no reason.
I jumped up from the floor, gripped the door nob, twisted it, and swung the door wide open. All heads snapped toward me. I glanced at the all of their faces, and set my eyes on Alaine.
“I just want you to know that I’ve been listening to your conversation. I know you don’t want me to go, but I believe I should have a say. When I was born into this world, I didn’t have a choice. I never asked to be… whatever it is that I am. But I’d like to have a choice now. A choice in how I’d like my life to turn out. Like I said before…if fate chooses that I should die, then I’ll die, but if it isn’t my time, then I will come back to you.
“ If Lucifer does have a Nephilim son, then I will have a greater chance of speaking to him. Maybe I can convince him of Lucian’s plans. Convince him that he has marked every Nephilim, including his son. If he loves his son as much as you love me, then he should help us. I just need to get him to see that if he continues to let Lucian run free, his son will eventually become a victim.
“ If I stay here, we will all die. If I go, we have a chance of surviving, and a hope to live the rest of our lives without fear. If I fail…we will all die anyway, but at least we tried. It’s not a question of whether or not I want to go. I will go, and I will have the best of Heaven and Hell to guide and protect me.”
I t was like my mouth was on autopilot. I’d never spoken before with such devotion or conviction. A few days ago, I would have never risked my life, or put myself in any kind of danger. But the old me was slowly starting to fade, and become covered with my new life.
I guess t hat’s what death does. Seeing and experiencing it all around you. It changes you from the inside out. My heart aches whenever the memories of my parents flash through my mind. I miss them horribly, but I also have to learn to block the memories out, because it makes me weak. This new life, the one I was just thrown into, doesn’t allow me to be weak.
But there was something else that gave me strength, and it happened the moment I met Kade. His touch held me together during my darkest hours. It helped me gather myself, and pull me to the moment to where I am right now, standing strong and determined.
Now, I no longer needed his touch, because I could feel a change happening within myself. I was a caterpillar, in the process of wrapping myself in a cocoon. Wrapping up all the sadness, anger, frustration, and horror, only to be transformed and released on my eighteenth birthday.
I wasn’t sure what type of butterfly would emerge, b ut right now all I cared about was staying alive. I was still mortal, and my cocoon was very fragile.
If I was