alert, dishonest.
I was in a great hall, lofty, pillared, reaching into the distance. There were flowers in great pots, andâthe old crystal palace, maybe?âtall glittering walls; there were many people. I waited quietly, not knowing who was going to come around asking, and waited and waited, and then found one man singled out, almost drifting to where I waited, almost moving without movement, surely without sound. âA tall man,â I said, and heard my own voice remotely, âa tall man, wanting something. He has gray hair. He is not very old, but he has gray hair.â
âMy father,â someone said.
â
My
brother,â someone else said.
âExcuse me. My father.â
âHe says,â and I raised my voice, hearing it speak out there, to them, while I listened inside, âhe says to take up the book he left behind, the book that he held in his hands near the end, the book he was holding in his hands. He says to take up the book and turn to page . . . page . . . page . . . it has an eight and a five.â
âDad?â
âI beg your pardon. My brother. I know the very book.â
âAn eight and a five; find the page and there will be a messageâa letter?âa message. He says he left a message.â
âAsk him if he is happy. Tell him itâs his sister asking.â
âExcuse meââ
âHe does not know the word happy. He is here, and that is all. He is going now.â
âIâm sure it was my father; if I had been given a chance to speakââ
âSomeone is here,â I said. I heard my voice saying it. âSomeone is here asking for Alice? Anna? Angela?â I knew even then there was something wrong with Angela, but I had forgotten what. âAlice?â
âMy wife? Her name is Agnes.â
âShe is ill, is she not? Someone is asking if she is better, if her illness has abated; someone is asking that you tell her the old medicine is better. Someone wants her to know that she is being taken care of, someone is over her now, comforting her.â
âBut the old medicine didnâtââ
âTell her someone is caring for her. She will be better.â
âWill you ask my father to come back again? I must speak to him, really.â
âThere are many many many here, some of them wanting to speak, some of them moving away. One who wants to speak is asking for a daughter, but it is not a father who wants a daughter; someone is asking for a daughter. Is there a daughter here?â
âMy mother? My
mother
wants to talk to me? What for?â
âAre you well? Are you contented? Someone is asking if you are well.â
âItâs not my mother then, because sheââ
âGone now. Some are pressing close to me, some are far away. Here is someone with a message. Do not forget old Ginger.â
âWhat?â
âDo not forget old Ginger.â My Lord, I thought, from somewhere far away, old Ginger was
my
cat. Messages for myself. Better quit soon. âDo not forget old Ginger,â I said, as though I ever could. âHere is someone asking, asking; a message for a wife.â
âI donât want it,â Mrs. Faun said; I could hear her voice thin and annoyed. âTell him to go away again; I donât want to hear anything he has to say.â
âSomeone is here, someone who wants to ask about a little child. Was the little child lost? Did it ever come home again? Where is the little child?â
âGet my father back; we donât know any littleââ
âNow there is a message here, a message for T. L.â
âMe? The first initialâs really J., but they always called me Teddy; I guess itâs for me.â
âGood fortune in store for you, T. L., great good fortune is being warned against; do not be deceived.â
So that was my first seance; it couldnât have been a very good one,
Jim DeFelice, Johnny Walker