got home, we ate dinner at the TV and then went to bed, not talking more than we had to. I was calmer at that point, but it was clear she still needed space. I understood she was mad about the police, because they freaked me out too. But they hadnât come around to ask me anything else today, and I knew, now that sheâd talked to them, she didnât haveany more to worry about either. It was just like Dee said: theyâd asked her what they needed to know, and that was the end of it. She was safe, even if she didnât feel it yet. We all were.
Friday I had off, and since I didnât have anywhere to go, I decided to try and make things nicer again between me and Bird. Sheâd been up early but lain down on the couch to doze while the baby bounced and squealed in her jumpy swing. I cooed and tapped Jamelee on the nose as I walked by, heading to the kitchen to make a big breakfast, keeping as quiet as I could so as not to wake Bird.
I made a mess of eggs and some ham, plus biscuits with gravy. The cooking melted away the rest of my upsetness with Bird. But even after the house filled with good food smells, Bird didnât come into the kitchen until I called for her. She sat at the table with me but pretended to be looking at a magazine while we ate. I watched her, disappointed that she hadnât even said thank you for breakfast. She wasnât letting this go. I cleared our dishes and tried to think of some kind of outing I could suggest, something fun for me and her and the baby. Something to help her realize everything was okay.
A knock at the door finally got us talking. Bird made a face, looking at the clock on the stove.
âTyrone ainât supposed to be here for his suit until eleven,â she said to me.
âIâll get it. Probably Jehovahâs Witnesses, since the carâs here.â
She snorted, and the small laugh-noise felt like a kind of victory.
When I opened the door, I thought at first what I was seeing wasnât real. Two cops in uniforms, plus a detective in a suitâthe one who had questioned me beforeâand another officer standing back, in the yard. Two squad cars behind them parked on the street, with a black police van parked farther down the road.
âGood morning, maâam. Weâre here to see Shondeana Brown.â
Polite as could be, the detective was. Like he wasnât turning my blood into ice.
âWho is it, Nikki?â Bird said, coming behind me. I heard her stop still, seeing the police.
âMs. Brown,â the detective said to her, looking beyond me. He held something up. âWe have a warrant here to search your vehicle. Weâre expecting that youâll cooperate.â
âYou have a what?â
Somehow Bird was past me, on the stoop, jutting out her chin, looking fierce, even though she only came to the detectiveâs chest.
âMaâam,â one of the officers said, his tone not as polite. âIâll ask you to step down, please.â
I wanted to take her arm, pull her into the house with me. But I couldnât move.
Birdâs hands were in fists at her sides, but her voice waslow. âAinât no reason you have to be over here this morning. I already told him everything I know, which is nothing. You ainât got no need to search nothing of my property.â
A small sound came out of me: âBird.â
The detective moved a step down, bringing him closer to her eye level. âMs. Brown, a vehicle of this exact color and modelâspecifically, with the symbol there on the backâwas described by more than one witness during one of our investigations. We noticed the vehicle when we were here questioning you the other day, and as this isâby your own admission and Miss Doughertyâsâthe residence where one of our suspects was staying, Iâm afraid we do have probable cause to search your car. Now, I understand youâre upset, but your cooperation
Bertrand R. Brinley, Charles Geer