strand of that equally impossibly red hair behind one ear. He was so nervous that it showed in the tightness of his muscles as he moved, or tried notto move and betray just how nervous he was. For once, I didnât need to sense anything from him to know exactly how he felt.
âHow bad are the nightmares?â I asked.
âBad enough.â
âAre they memories?â
âSome, but most of them are modern-day, and I donât recognize most of the people in them.â
âIâve had dreams like that, where itâs like youâre guest-starring in someone elseâs dreams,â I said.
He nodded. âYes, but they are violent, awful dreams.â He stared at his hands, shoulders slumping this time, as if he was beginning to hunch in upon himself. âI wake up and Cardinale is still dead, cool to the touch, and Iâm burning up like a fever.â
âVampires are hard when you have daymares,â I said.
He nodded. âI guess it is a daymare, not a nightmare.â
âEither way, when your lover is cold to the touch, they canât hold you while you scream.â
âNo, she canât. She keeps saying,
Why arenât I enough for you?
But she doesnât understand.â
âYou need someone there who can wake you up, hold you, be warm for you,â I said.
âYes, I do, damn it. I do.â
âWhat did Jean-Claude say when you told him?â
âHe doesnât know.â
âYouâre telling me first, before your king?â
âYouâre my master, Anita, not him. Iâm supposed to tell you first.â
âWeâll debate that later. Are you dying at dawn?â
âSometimes, but most of the time I curl up beside Cardinale and I sleep until the nightmares wake me.â
âYou should be dying at dawn, Damian.â
âDonât you think I know that? When I woke this morning I had sweat blood, Anita. Itâs like I have a fever, a human fever, but I sweat blood. Itâs like Iâm sick.â
âVampires donât get sick,â I said.
âIf Iâm not ill, then what is it?â
âI donât know, but first we have to tell Jean-Claude,â I said.
âAnd then?â He gave me a very direct look.
I met the look with one of my own. âWhat do you want me to say, Damian? Weâll talk to Jean-Claude. Maybe Iâll talk to my friend Marianne; sheâs a witchâmaybe sheâd have an idea about where to start.â
âI think this is happening because you, Nathaniel, and I almost never see each other. Youâre a necromancer, Iâm your vampire servant, and Nathaniel is your leopard to call, but the three of us have almost no relationship.â
âYou say that like itâs normal for a necromancer to have a vampire servant the way a master vampire has a human servant, but itâs a first in all of vampire history. The fact that I can make
moitié bêtes
like a master vampire is even weirder, because that has nothing to do with my necromancy.â
âYou gain power through Jean-Claudeâs vampire marks, through being his human servant.â
âYeah, but that doesnât explain everything I can do.â
âYou came with your own power, Anita.â
âIâm sorry I accidentally bound you and Nathaniel into a triumvirate of power.â
âYou saved my life more than once with your power, Anita; I donât regret being bound to you. The only thing I regret is that you grew closer to Nathaniel than to me.â
âYou and your lady love, Cardinale, asked me to back off and let the two of you be monogamous together. I respected the request.â
âYou had already fallen in love with Nathaniel, and were so not in love with me. Donât blame that on Cardinaleâs relationship with me.â
âIâm not, but we were lovers before you and she went monogamous.â
âYou slept with me less