Darden's Pursuit of Happiness: Darden and Willow by LiSoya Gilltin Read Free Book Online Page A

realization that he was right.
    “How do you expect me to trust you when you crushed my hopes and dreams in the past? I am so afraid of being hurt by you. I am even more afraid of disappointing you.”
    Darden frowned.  “How could you ever be able to disappoint me?” Darden pulled her in to his embrace.
    “I don’t know if I can be . . . you know . . . intimate with you. I am not so naïve to believe that you are willing to go without sex.”
    “I am not some asshole off the street who, doesn’t know and understand about the past. I know we will have to take things very slowly.  We may need to get professional help. We may need to talk with a sex therapist.  I don’t know. What I do know is, for right now I am more than satisfied with our kisses and holding you in my arms.  I have never forced myself on anyone. And I won’t do anything that you don’t want me to. We will work through this together.” Darden’s arm tightened possessively around her. He gave her a soft kiss. He slowly deepened the kiss.  Darden lifted her and cradled her in his arms and walked over the sofa and sat down.  He rearranged her so she was straddling him.  He placed his hand on either side of her face and gently pulled her face to his and kissed her. “When you want me to stop I will stop. We will start and stop then start all over from the beginning. I want you to be able to trust me and eventually let go of all your inhibitions with me. I want it to be fun never a chore or a duty. I want you to feel comfortable telling me yes or no.  I want you to tell me what feels good and what doesn’t.  I want you to let me know if you feel uncomfortable. I never want you to be afraid because you could never disappoint me.”
    Willow didn’t know what to say. “Sweetheart, do you trust me?”
    “What about the other women? Will I have to endure embarrassment?” Willow wasn’t sure she could take any more heartache an especially not over this man.
    Darden frowned at her? Didn’t she know no one else held so as little as a candle to her? That in his eyes it was only her. Yes, he had had his share of women.  But none of them meant a damn thing to them. “There won’t be any other women. There will only be you. 
I am ready to do the right thing. I am not going to lie to you, I have had many women that I fucked or had sex with.  But none of them have I ever made love to or with. There is a difference. When we make love each and every time my heart will be it. You will know from the beginning I love only you and will give myself only to you. With you my only intention is to make love to you. That eventually we will make love together.
    “Willow, do you trust me? You should know me well enough to know I would never hurt you.  You said so yourself that I was your protector.  So allow me to protect your heart. To keep your heart safe, allow me once again to keep you safe and make you feel secure.”
    “You are asking so much, so soon.”
    He stood abruptly.  He asked her to wrap her legs around him. Willow was hesitant at first.  Willow asked, “What are you doing?”
    Darden simply grinned. He started walking toward her bedroom. Willow’s eyes grew huge.  “Darden, I am not ready for this!”
    “You are ready for what we are going to do.  I have waited three years to hold you in my arms again as I slept. I plan to have the best sleep I have had since we left your parent’s house.”
    She couldn’t believe it.  “Darden is that true you haven’t slept well since then?  Darden shifted Willow in his arms and laid her down across the bed. He kissed her gently at first.  He intended to break the kiss to answer but he couldn’t. He felt himself become nestled between her legs which caused him to moan deeply. He had to break the kiss now.  He pulled away from her and it felt like a hand was closing in around his heart.  He hated to pull away from her.  He pulled the covers back on the bed and asked her to climb in.