Defining Us: The Calvin & Eric Story (69 Bottles) by Zoey Derrick Read Free Book Online

more minutes before Talon came out in the hall. Casey finally let me get into his room and I slammed the door in his face, I'll apologize tomorrow.  
    I text Dr. V.  

    It happened again, only this time, I was stone cold sober…

CASEY came in some time after I fell asleep, thank god, because I wasn't in the mood for his inquisition; which I know is coming.  
    I tried to sneak out before anyone else got up this morning but failed miserably. Addison, Talon, Kyle, Beck and Mills are all in the hallway when I come out of Casey's room.  
    "Why were you in there?" Talon asks me and all I can do is stare daggers at him, hoping like hell he won't press the subject.  
    "What's the plan for today?" I ask, changing the subject.  
    "Not much, just some shopping. We have to leave this afternoon to drive down to Miami. Did you need to go somewhere?" Mills asks.  
    "Anywhere but here," I say stoically.  
    "Mouse?" Addison says and I look at her. "Can we talk?"  
    I roll my eyes. "There isn't anything to talk about."  
    "I beg to differ. Just you and me?"  
    I sigh, "Fine."  
    She turns to the guys. "Go ahead, we'll stay here."  
    I watch as Talon and Kyle both nod their acceptance and kiss Addison before departing with Beck and Mills. "Come on, let's go to my room." She walks past me toward one of the doors at the far end of the hall. Once there, without a word, she slides the key into the door and opens it, gesturing me inside.  
    ‘This isn't necessary. I don't have anything that needs…"  
    "I'm aware. But Mouse, you've got to talk to someone."  
    I scrub my head with my hand and relent, stepping past her into the room. It's much bigger than ours. They usually get the bigger rooms anyway. Talon, at least, has always gotten the biggest rooms. Rooms that we used to party in, before this tour. To say that I'm a little jealous or maybe even a little hurt that things panned out the way they did is an understatement. I knew all along that eventually we'd all find our own person and the dynamic of the band would change, I just never expected it to be this soon. "How do you do it?" I say as we take a seat in the little sitting room off of the bedroom.  
    "Do what?" she asks innocently.  
    "Deal with both of them?"  
    She laughs, "Some days, I don't. Some days it's just easier to let them be them. Other days I feel like they can't get enough of me, no matter what I do." I watch as a warm smile spreads across her face as she talks about Talon and Kyle.  
    "How do they do it?"  
    She cocks her head at me. "You'll have to be more specific."  
    I let out a deep breath and start to fidget with my hands. "Is it the three of you, all the time, in bed?"  
    I can't look at her, my embarrassment at the question I've asked is enough for the both of us.  
    "No, it's not. Sometimes it's just me alone with Talon or Kyle, other times it's just the two of them though they won't admit that too much." I shiver thinking about Talon and Kyle together, my mind repels the idea.  
    "So," I swallow hard. "When the three of you are together, do they…" I let the question fall into silence and I see her move, getting comfortable, pulling her feet up under her as she leans into the arm of the chair she sat in.  
    "They do," she says so matter of fact that it causes my head to come up and look at her. My mind attempts to reject the idea, forcing my stomach to churn. She cocks her head at me. "I'm an open book, Calvin, ask me anything."  
    I swallow again. "I need alcohol for this conversation," I tell her as I rub my sweating palms across my thighs.  
    She nods with her head behind me. "Fridge is over there."  
    I look behind me and sure enough, there is a slightly larger than dorm sized fridge under the counter, but I don't get up. I turn back toward her, my mind going a million miles a minute with a million different questions. "That doesn't repulse you? Seeing them together like that?"  
    Her head cocks at me in return, questions and