Denying Heaven (Room 103) by D H Sidebottom Read Free Book Online

heartbeat and forced it higher until it was a heavy banging thud in
my chest.
    I looked at him but didn’t answer, he didn’t need me to.
    “Bulk, how long has she been...”
    “Don’t!” I spat as I lifted a hand to halt his painful
words, “Don’t.”
    He rolled his lips then sucked in a heavy breath but kept
his troubled gaze on me before it got too unbearable to look at and I turned
back to the outside commotions through the shield of the window and I frowned
as an ambulance pulled up with its lights blaring. Maybe Boss had cried himself
to death?
     
    The world continued as my ache immobilised me, it’s daily
pattern of light and dark, night and day, sunrise and sunset brought the agony
of each painful breath without my life force, my other half, the light in my
own darkness.
    “Even after seven years… I just… I just miss her, ya’
know… my heart aches for her Romeo, my soul shivers without her warmth and I…”
    “You what?” he asked softly from beside me as he came to
rest on the window with me, his bleak eyes holding me hostage until I said the
words he wanted to hear.
    “I… I can’t feel again, it feels like… like I’m betraying
her, giving a part of what was hers to…”
    “To Spirit?” he finished for me and I nodded slowly.
    “Bulk, there’s nothing I can say that will help you come
to terms with all this; that, you have to do yourself but just think what Shona
would want. Would she want seven and more years of an ache that hurts you deep?
No, I didn’t know her well, but hell that woman had the purest of hearts and I
think… no, I know she wouldn’t want this for you; she’d want you to live mate,
fully. You’ve bedded other women, what’s so different about Spirit?”
    I shrugged at him, frowning at the commotion outside our
door as I turned back to the window, “I… maybe, it’s just hard, not knowing
what to do but Spirit, she’s… Christ, she’s a mess Romeo, I can feel it in her and
it’s choking.”
    “What’s the deal with Kenny and her?” Romeo asked as he
walked towards our door to see what the ruckus outside was about.
    “Yeah, that’s a bit of weird shit too, I mean he…”
    I paused as I watched Romeo’s eyes widen as he peered
round the edge of our door and into the hallway, “What is it?”
    He shrugged then looked back at me, his brow furrowed as
his eyes darkened. “It looks like Spirit and Janey’s room, I can’t see
properly.”
    “What!”
    Romeo moved out of the doorway before I took him with me
in my rush to find out what the fuck was happening.
     
    Kenny was stood in Spirit’s doorway refusing entry to
every fuck. Who the hell was he to Spirit? What the hell gave him the right to
rule her?
    “Move!” I said with a glare as he refused to move his arm
from blocking my access.
    He stared at me with a slight smirk, no reference to
worry or concern at Spirit’s condition on his face. “I asked you to move.”
    He scrunched his nose and shook his head, “No, let the
paramedics deal with her, they don’t need your shit.”
    “The fuck, Kenny? What’s happened anyway?”
    His face darkened as his eyes strolled over my frame with
a slight distaste written in his expression, “The usual… She’s fucked.”
    I closed my eyes and swallowed back the disappointment in
Spirit. What the hell was she playing at? Why did she need that shit?
“Fuck, again?”
    Kenny tipped his head and gazed at me, his eyes narrow
and questioning but full of ire and contempt and I sank my teeth into my bottom
lip to stop the mouth full of shit I wanted to give him.
    “Again?”
    I ignored him as I tried to get a glimpse at what was
going off in the room. Janey and two paramedics were crouched on the floor and
I moved my head slightly to catch a glimpse of Spirit.
     
    She was sat up, her eyes half open but at least she was
conscious and looked okay, if a little pale. Her eyes caught mine and she
swallowed before looking away with shame as her tongue licked