change,â I tell her. âBut I know what you mean. I always want to know how things are going to end up. Not knowing is the worst part.â
âExactly,â she says, and this makes me feel good. Maybe Iâm making some sense; maybe I actually understand how sheâs feeling.
I continue. âAnd I think youâre right about getting used to the new way of things. Itâs like when Micayla and her sister and brother, Ivy and Zane, became year-rounders here. There was so much buildup and tension, and then, once it was settled, it turned out fine.â
âRemy.â Claire gives me a cold stare. âThese two things are not the same. At all. You canât compare Micaylaâs living year-round in a beach town to my parentsâ getting divorced. Come on.â
âNo, Iââ
Claire stands up and walks away, and Iâm left feeling like the worst friend in the world.
âClaire seems so sad today,â Micayla says a few minutes later, carrying over Tabbyâs water bowl so she can fill it up. âDid anything new happen?â
âNo, I donât think so. Just the usual stuff,â I tell her. I donât want to rehash my conversation with Claire and how I messed it up.
âBy the way,â Micayla says, âI donât want to freak you out, but I think Calvin likes you.â
I gasp. âWhat?â
At that exact moment, all the dogs seem to go crazy. Marilyn Monroe starts running in circles. Potato Salad and Oreo swim way too far out, and Bennett has to rescue them. Tabby, Rascal, and Atticus all start growling as if theyâre in a giant fight. And Ritzy seems to have tummy troubles.
And then thereâs Lester, huddled under a lounge chair, the way heâs been for the past half hour. Maybe Ritzy is freaking him out. He seems to shy away from her.
âWe have to focus on the dogs,â I tell her. âBut I need more details. Obviously.â
âRight. Letâs talk later.â
The whole time Iâm wrangling the dogs and trying to solve all their problems, Iâm thinking about what Micayla just told me. Could it possibly be true?
It feels like the most terrible yet exciting news.
I donât know what to do with this information. I came here this summer thinking everything would be perfect: I liked Bennett, the doggie day care business was going to be easy-breezy, I was going to be a great help to Claire, and we were all going to have the best summer ever.
But now Claire thinks I donât understand her, Calvin might like me, and the weather is totally unpredictable, with a storm possibly on the summer horizon.
And a college improv troupe wants to recruit our dogs?
Nothing makes sense anymore.
It feels like the summer I was eight, and, without realizing what I was doing, I swam out too far. The ocean started to get choppy, and the waves got bigger and bigger, crashing over my head. And one of the lifeguards had to dive in to help me.
Thatâs how I feel right now. I swam out too far. I need to be rescued.
âDid you ever know anyone whose parents got divorced?â I ask my dad over dinner. My mom is at book club tonight, and Dad and I decided to walk to Frederickâs Fish and eat on their roof deck.
Iâd never tell Mom this, but I love the nights she has book club. Sometimes itâs nice to have Dad all to myself. Mom has a tendency to ask too many questions when I turn to her for advice. Dad sits quietly and listens. He only chimes in with a question when absolutely necessary.
âYes, a few people, actually.â He takes a bite of his fish sandwich and looks at me with wide eyes, as if I should continue.
âWell, how did you help them?â I ask, and then decide to rephrase my question. âI guess what Iâm asking is, did you ever have a friend whose parents were going through a divorce, and you didnât know how to help her?â
Dad wipes his mouth with a napkin.