wholesome snacks Momhad put in during the week, all uneaten, given Ingridâs preference for chips and candy bars in the cafeteria, but no red Pumas.
âThere must be old ones around somewhere,â Dad said, losing patience.
Ingrid had old ones, a size too small and black. She squeezed her feet into them.
âFeeling fast today?â Dad said as they got in the TT and it slowly filled with his forest smell.
âYeah,â Ingrid said, although she couldnât remember feeling slower.
âKeep working the ball in the corners.â
âYeah.â
âAnd use that left-footed little fake on the red-haired girl. She overcommits.â
âYeah.â
âAre you listening?â
âYeah.â
âWhat did I say?â
âLeft-footed fake.â A tricky little jitterbug thing sheâd never executed properly, not even in practice.
âGood girl.â
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Coach Ringer, the last of the original founders of the Mid-State Leagueâgoing back to when bearsroamed free in Echo Fallsâwas a short round guy with a droopy mustache and a drippy nose on cold windy days, like this one. He always wore a black-and-gold hooded sweatshirt that said TOWNE HARDWARE on the back, SCREWS FOR YOUSE SINCE 1937, the dumbest slogan Ingrid had ever seen. Assistant Coach Trimble was tall and lean, wore running tights and a UConn soccer jacket, looked like she could do something amazing, like outrun a deer or kick the ball right through you.
Coach Ringer liked to gather the team around him in a tight circle for a pregame pep talk, of which there were two kinds, a long rambling one if theyâd been losing and a short confusing one if they were on a roll, like they were now, winners of three in a row.
âHey,â said Coach Ringer. âListen up.â
They all stopped talking, or at least talking loudly.
âToday,â said Coach Ringer, âI want you to remember oneââhe searched for the right word; when Coach Ringer searched for the right word, his jaw came jutting out like he was going take a swing at somebodyââthing,â he went on, finding the word. âRemember one thing and one thing only, and this is it, so listen up. That means everybody. The thing to remember is this. Listen up. Weâre gonna makethem play the way we want them to play.â That was it? Oh, noâwas he going to say it twice? For a moment, Ingrid thought maybe not. But then, raising his voice this time and spacing out the words: âWeâre gonna make them play the way we want them to play. Got it?â
The girls all nodded, ponytails sticking out sideways in the wind. Ingrid said, âI vote they play with their shoelaces tied together.â
A pause, followed by muffled laughter. Coach Ringer turned red. âTwenty-two,â he said, calling her by her number, âon the bench.â
Ingrid sat on the bench, steaming. She felt Dadâs eyes on her from the stands across the field.
Coach Ringer concluded his pep talk the way he always did. âAnything you wanna add, Coach Trimble?â In the kind of tone that invited a no.
Coach Trimble had been assisting with the As for two years now, and many parents couldnât wait for Coach Ringer to retire to Florida. She said what she always said: âPlay hard and play to win.â
It sounded like one of those meaningless sports clichés. But at that moment, sitting angrily on the bench at soccer field number one up the road from the hospital, the wind blowing and the temperaturefalling, winter just around the corner, Ingrid realized sheâd never actually heard it except from Coach Trimble, so it couldnât be a cliché. She glanced up, met Coach Trimbleâs gaze. Coach Trimble didnât have friendly eyes. Not that they were unfriendly, either, just impossible to see behind, at least for Ingrid. And all of a sudden, Ingrid got what Coach Trimble was trying to tell her: Playing hard
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