Faithful Place by Tana French Read Free Book Online Page B

every Christmas when you didn’t send a card, but . . .”
    But it was the eighties and emigration was one of your three main career paths, along with Daddy’s firm and the dole. Ma had to have been expecting at least one of us to end up with a one-way ferry ticket. “She didn’t think I was dead in a ditch?”
    Kevin snorted. “Nah. She said whoever got hurt, it wouldn’t be our Francis. We didn’t call the cops or report you missing or anything, but that wasn’t . . . Not that we didn’t care, like. We just figured . . .” The mattress moved as he shrugged.
    “That Rosie and I had run off together.”
    “Yeah. I mean, everyone knew the two of yous had been mad into each other, right? And everyone knew what Mr. Daly thought about that. So why not, you know what I mean?”
    “Yeah,” I said. “Why not.”
    “Plus, there was the note. I think that was what blew Mrs. Daly’s fuse: someone was messing about in Number Sixteen and they found this note. From Rosie, like. I don’t know if Jackie told you—”
    “I read it,” I said.
    Kevin’s head turned towards me. “Yeah? You saw it?”
    “Yeah.”
    He waited; I didn’t elaborate. “When did . . . ? You mean before she left it there? She showed it to you?”
    “After. Late that night.”
    “So—what? She left it for you? Not for her family?”
    “That’s what I thought. We were meant to meet up that night, she didn’t show, I found the note. I reckoned it had to be for me.”
    When I finally figured out that she meant it, that she wasn’t coming because she was already gone, I put on my rucksack and started walking. Monday morning, coming up to dawn; town was frosty and deserted, just me and a street sweeper and a few tired night-shift workers heading home in the icy half-light. Trinity clock said the first ferry was leaving Dun Laoghaire.
    I ended up in a squat, off Baggot Street, where a bunch of smelly rockers lived with a wall-eyed mutt named Keith Moon and an impressive amount of hash. I sort of knew them from gigs; they all figured another one had invited me to stay for a while. One of them had a nonsmelly sister who lived in a flat in Ranelagh and would let you use her address for the dole if she liked you, and it turned out she liked me a lot. By the time I put her address on my application to cop college, it was practically true. It was a relief when I got accepted and had to go off to Templemore for training. She had started making noises about marriage.
    That bitch Rosie, see; I believed her, every word. Rosie never played games; she just opened her mouth and told you, straight out, even if it hurt. It was one of the reasons I loved her. After life with a family like mine, someone who didn’t do intrigue was the most intriguing thing of all. So when she said I swear I’ll come back someday, I believed her for twenty-two years. All the time I was sleeping with the smelly rocker’s sister, all the time I was going out with feisty, pretty, temporary girls who deserved better, all the time I was married to Olivia and pretending to belong in Dalkey, I was waiting for Rosie Daly to walk through every door.
    “And now?” Kevin asked. “After today. What do you reckon now?”
    “Don’t ask me,” I said. “At this point, I honestly don’t have a clue what was going on in Rosie’s head.”
    He said quietly, “Shay thinks she’s dead, you know. So does Jackie.”
    “Yeah,” I said. “Apparently they do.”
    I heard Kevin take a breath, like he was gearing up to say something. After a moment he let it out again.
    I said, “What?”
    He shook his head.
    “What, Kev?”
    “Nothing.”
    I waited.
    “Just . . . Ah, I don’t know.” He moved, restlessly, on the bed. “Shay took it hard, you leaving.”
    “Because we were such great pals, you mean?”
    “I know yous fought all the time. But underneath . . . I mean, you’re still brothers, you know?”
    Not only was this obvious bullshit—my first memory is of waking up with Shay