Falcon Song: A love story by Kristin Cross Read Free Book Online

from each other and it was strength he needed desperately. He could hardly breathe when they were at odds with each other.
    He reached and tenderly brushed a thumb along the hollow under her ear. “Kate, can I ask you something?” She looked up and waited and he swallowed hard and continued, “Kate, in light of what happened last night. Do you think you would want to talk about getting married sometime? I don’t mean to pressure you, but getting married feels like the honorable thing to do. Do we have to keep waiting?”
    Her tired eyes clouded momentarily and she sighed. She glanced down and then back up as he felt the disappointment drop into his gut as she said, “Jason, maybe getting married does feel like the honorable thing to do. And heaven knows I want that almost desperately. But it would be a mistake right now. I’m sure it would. We need to get married because we love each other and have no doubts about wanting to be together for eternity. Not because we feel guilty.”
    Pausing, she leaned her forehead on his chest for a second and then looked back up at him. “Jason, can I be really, really gut honest with you?” He nodded somberly. “I’m afraid, Jason.” His eyes narrowed as he tried to understand what she was telling him as she went on in a whisper, “I’m so afraid you’ll become more and more popular and famous and rich and… And… That you’ll meet someone, someday who will make you wish you hadn’t married the girl next door. That someday in this whole super star deal you’ll find a flavor you like better than Kate. The thought of you regretting me makes me heartsick.”
    Still with her heart in her eyes, she continued, “And married people have babies, Jason. I need you to be used to the glitz and fame and know I’m still the one. Before we have children involved. I can’t stand the thought of being the failed marriage on the covers of the magazines at the grocery store. Especially with a child or two caught in the middle. I’m sorry, Jason, but I have to know. It seems backwards. But I have to know.”
    She stopped and dropped her eyes and he shook his head and said softly, “Kate, how many times do I have to tell you? Baby, I’m not seventeen anymore. I’m twenty four years old. Do you honestly not know to the depth of your soul that I want only you?” He pulled her face up to look at him and asked gently, “Kate, what do I have to do more than I have?”
    Tears pooled in her eyes again. “You have to spread your wings and fly, Jason. Fly and then come home to me and we’ll have the biggest wedding on the planet. Just make sure first.”
    He ran a hand through his hair and shook his head in frustrated disgust. “Geez, Kate, I wish you trusted me. And today I can’t even ask that.”
    He swore bitterly and then pulled her tightly against him again as he let out a long sigh. “All right, Kate. We’ll wait. And I’ll fly and you’ll grow deeper roots and someday I’ll figure out how to prove myself to you. But, you know what Kate? I bitterly regret last night. I do. I’d give anything to take it all back. But you know what else? I probably shouldn’t even tell you this. It’ll make you sad again.”
    She leaned her head back and looked up at him as he admitted almost fiercely, “I loved making love to you last night, Kate. I can’t even put into words what your body does to me. As wrong as that sounds. I do want you, Kate. I want you desperately. Nothing in my life has been as hard as keeping my hands off of you.”
    He took a ragged breath and assured her, “I’ll wait. I’ll wait forever. And I’ll respect you. I have the greatest respect for you. But I was telling you the truth about Falcons mating for life. I haven’t changed. I’m never going to change. I’m in this for the long haul. I want to marry you, Kate. As soon as y’all can possibly get past this fear of all the other flavors. I want to try to start all over with you and take back having made