been there to watch you grow up into the beautiful young lady you are today. I missed so much. I can't go back in time and get those years back mo inion, but I promise you from today forward you are my one and only concern. I will do anything in my power to ensure you have the future you deserve.”
I feel a tear slide down my cheek from his eye when he leans forward to kiss my temple. I wish I would wrap my arms around him and tell him how much I love him too, even though we have only known each other for a short time, he is my daddy. I hate that he wasn't a part of my childhood too and a part of me hates my mother for shielding me from him. I don't feel that was her decision to make. It was selfish and in the end it only hurt me more, but hate is a pointless emotion that I will not allow to infect my soul. Instead I will make the best of the future, as soon as I am out of this coma.
Chapter 5
Tris
Seriously, there has got to be a better way to track down a freaking Shaman! I mean really! I get that they are all in hiding and blah, blah, blah, but sheesh! Set up a Face book page or something! A 1-800 number or use some of that voodoo magic and cast up a spell so you KNOW when someone really needs you! And while you're casting up spells and using all that voodoo mumbo jumbo how about creating me a nice little concoction for making annoying males shut up? No? Well fine then, I’ll just wait ‘til he falls asleep and duct tape his mouth shut.
Okay so I probably won't really do that, but My God if he doesn't quit asking me if I'm O.K, then I can't be held responsible for my actions. Like seriously. Yes, I get that he is being a good guy and I may or may not have been feeling under the weather, but does he need to ask every two minutes? Like a broken record?
"Are you ok, Tris? You don't look so good, M'anam."
Like I need a constant reminder of how crappy I look! I mean really! And if it’s so bad, then why do I find him constantly staring at me? Eyeballing me like I'm a glass of Kool-aid after a walk across the desert? I am in the middle of a forest, searching for a Shaman. Bathing in creeks and using bushes as my own personal bathroom. Seriously! Gah! MEN! It would be nice if we were able to stay in towns, or cities or heck Id even take rat infested motels at this point, but no. The closest I get to spending anytime in civilization is when we cross a town. Then we stop and charge our cells and our portable chargers, refill our supplies and every once in awhile I get to take a real shower. The last time we stopped we were in a hurry so I just ran in and snatched all the tiny bottles of shampoo and soap I could find while Orin charged everything up. Hey don't judge me; A girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.
I stop and lean against a tall tree, resting my head against the rough bark and try to breathe steadily. I have had the worst headache going on two weeks. It’s not going away. I used up the bottle of Ibuprofen, I had stashed in my bag, in three days. It just keeps on... getting worse and worse as the days go by. And now on top of that, I am getting these dizzy spells. Almost like the world starts spinning but I'm not moving with it. I just watch it go round and round. I wonder if I really did accidentally eat some poisonous berries trying to cure my poo problem. Gah I hope not!
The first time the dizziness happened, I think I started spinning with it, trying to keep up. That didn't work so well, I just ended up landing on my butt in a pile of mud. Talk about embarrassing. Come to think of it these dizziness spells have been getting worse and worse over the last few days and I know it’s not the berries. I haven't had any of them since right after Lyon left. Its gotta be something else. I wonder away from Orin for a minute to find a little privacy. I have been needing to pee for the last mile at least, but I keep holding it, hoping for